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Thursday, August 31, 2006
, tell me what to do. well jus now when i wake up, meet guan hong KING and katek la. then went to cut my hair. damn long but it seem short to them. calling me army boy la. idiot. then after tat went ot talk la. haha. ask katek alot of ting la. and now i noe. thankz katek. haha. well then chit chat to 9.51. that idiot guan hong shout! DIE LATE FOR WEDDING. then went home. online maple. lolz. then all wait or jialing and sze hui. then finally wedding start. but we all talking talking to each other we miss the wedding part. idiot lo. well. then just now, 2plus meet jas now download more game see can play anot la. sian. well tell me what to do? haiz. sian la. update till here. bored. well if i could read your heart, it will be better for me, if thing turn out better, maybe it won't end this way, so what are we goin to do? live on like that? i don't want to just regret my whole life out. let our love have another chance, it is in your hand. Wednesday, August 30, 2006
 guan hong ar. see don't try it anymore ok?  me, king, genius . drinking?  martell. 40%. bad for health. message that i leave for you. i noe you won't feel anything. of cause you already forget those happy time. and forget about everything apart of us alreay. who else who know how sad i really feel? closing my eye yet i feel that you are leaving me that kind of pain. why can't you let me love you more. wish to tell you i love you on the phone but i don't dare. i want to let go of you. forget you. let me don't miss her anymore. i will wave my hand saying goodbye. regret that i walk away. let me go first cause i don't wanna see the back view of yours. cause i will stop and break down at that point. who can understand. standin with me. tinking of how i feel. too bad. all those above i can't do it. i can't why? i wish i really could do those and let me don't think of her anymore. but god i can't. i have stop running from the truth. i see her, tears rolling, i break down, but she can't see the way i'm now. how can i hide my feeling? my fear? don't tink of place that we went. those tings that we do? why are you so cold blooded? why are passvie like this? i'm really tired of crying at home. but how can i stop it? let me love you more for this last time and i will let go. turn back and let me walk off. waving goodbye. and let me stop tinking of you. the last time. well maybe someday you will know how i really feel, i hope. this hurt. i had never cry so much, never really make me feel that i don't wanna study no more. never really go back to the normal days. and let me die instead. tryin hard feelin to jump. but i can't whenever i see my family memeber. cutting is stupid. but i did try. is still can't stop me from getting more pain. crying everytime i blog. listening to song. tears are rolling. and i can't see your face of gentle. my tears have blur my vision and i can't see the road in front of me. have you ever had so much hurt before? you are walking so fast that i can't catch up. running away from me and i see two shadow. have you ever hurt so deep? love so deep? cry so much? do so much? carry on with your life but what about me. never turn back and there i don't see you anymore. i wish, there is just too much i wish. but what more can i do? so what if i noe im wrong? i can't do anyting more, to love you more. the chalet you sister have. the drawing that you draw. the song tthat you like. i had never tot of hurting you. never really tot of giving up. hanging on. but all those i do. can you see? you are walking your way but i can't even stand. tot of giving up. but all everytime i say but i can't do. losting every part of it and wat more i can do to hold back? if you tellin me break up is just saying and there you are walking away. then i tell you, you mayb walk away happily but not to others. it not just giving up on other and care about yourself. i learn so much. but in the end what did i get? tears, pain, quit schooling, smoking. all this is what i get now. nothing more. so this is what you see apart if me but all i see in your is just smile. and all you care is about yourself. that all? what about me? did you see me? in your sight maby i'm not even there. if found you in the crowd. so did you found me in the crowd, but you choose to pretent that i'm not there. is it so hard to forgive someone? is it so easy that feeling will fade? there is fear in me to see you wallkin pass me, and pretent that you don't know me at all. let me go back. let me in your heart once again. let me do wat i did wrong to make it right once again. i don't believe that that feeling are so easy to just fade. 7month sofastbutyetsolong. wat more? mayb you tell me that you are leaving and i swear that day i will love you more and never let you go again. please believe in me once again. today maple at home then at night go meet best friend bought 4 maple card to cut my charter hair. well. then go taman play lan again. morning come back. ya la, jasling fai. i know haixin caught 16, i know i never caught any la. go there feed prawn only right. you die le la. i this thurs we go prawn i will prove that i will ho. that day don't want show off only what. haha. well. thurs go prawing. hope it this will make me feel better. i hope. well. then tat day at haixin house downstair wif guan hong,zhang lang and jasline la..chit chat lo...ling time never see zhang lang la. hmm. then haixin everytime take plane come meet us de. everytime her plane will deley de. at her house downstair also deley. sian lo. well i guess this is it ba. thurs is comin soon. monday and tuesday is N level le. wat am i going to do? am i going to take or just fail? just hope you will tell me what to do. to go school or not? say something better and not to hurt me no more. i don't want to tink anymore. tell me will you? and i need that person is you. if my phone won't find then i tink this prove that i'm really too useless and hopeless already. if she say someting better i will be in a good mood i guess. well. i can know the answer as now i'm tinking. haiz. well. update till here. goin to train maple. then sleep. then at night go attend jia ling and best friend the wedding for maple. they going to married le. so sweet. how i wish. ok la. update soon. tell me that this i not for real. i wanna know the answer. tell me you still love me. forgive me for my wrong. let me do wat is wrong to get it right once again. running away so far. yet all i see is my shadow. come back home, i will wait for you. Tuesday, August 29, 2006
 the result of hitting beer bottle. =) , jay song -qian li zhi wai- . it nice. new song. finally i noe what is he singing. buying his new album again! jay freak is me, love is sick is still me. why am i still hanging there when she already like his guy! tell me this is not truth! tell me this is gonna be a dream. tell me this is just a game! tell me, you are qian li zhi wai la. haiz. why do people wait for love one when they know, it will only bring hurt. maybe this will let me had a break to not start for a relationship. maybe i just want to wait for her. that all i want. i don't think there is anyone can't take over her in my heart. will i'm daddy son. same like daddy ba. baka! someone please wake me up, please kill me and let me die in peace. let me forget her, now let me die i'm instead of making me havin all those pain. why must i take all those pain! who can i blame! grow up please! i don't want to be like this anymore! not as if i did something wrong it will len me all the way wrong. not as if people do wrong there is no way back! why must this happen! there is so many why i wanna ask but who gonna answer? who is gonna to understand the feeling of being hurt when all you wan is just to get back thing the way you wan? why do people can but i just can't? this prove that i'm really useless? N level? please fuck off men! stop telling me N level i really don't know. i really feel lik hitting people up already. i just wann hui dao guo qu! time! rewind! i hated this kind of life. morning when people going to school! im sleepin! when ppl takin prelim! what am i doing! who know i'm crying when ever i tink of you. blog is the only way i really really wann say my feeling! i tink hui dao guo qu is not goin to happen. wat more can i do? i'm tired of it already. i'm tired of everything. i''m tired now. hanging for too long but i'm still holding. so if people can't hui dao guo qu den i don't tink jay sing this song is just for fun? god damn! why can you just forget everything part of us so easily? tell me please! i hated even ever i blog i cry. i want someone who can catches all my tears. take away all my fear in relationship. take away all my pain. who! who! who! tell me man. i'm not goin to flirt around no more. i'm not goin to do wat is wrong for me. but who to trust! trust nobody in this world. couple will just fuck off in my sight. something is just wrong wif me. nth can be right anymore. this is wat the pain you have made to me. grandma! mother! teacher! family members! friend! lost hope in me, what more can i do? a useless freak. so glad tat this is wat i'm goin to get for my N level result. FAIL! useless freak. get off my mind. stop makin me tink of you. stop me from crying over her everyday. jas make me smile and laugh my ass off when ever i cry to see her messages but she is not goin to be for me everytime. can story go back? can just everything go back? i sure i'm going to stay back in sec 4 again. wat am i goin to do? pain in my body is better den the pain in my heart, wat is the painful ting to do? slappin? banging my head? so near but yet so far? damn! so near for the past, so far from now till den. the distance is too too far from now. god can you just understand my pain? wat i wan? who will make me gonna go back? god damn! sreamin my lung out. just to reach out for you. but yet too far to reach. climbing the highest montain all i see is the smile on your face, make my hurt more. how do you ease the past! how do you forget the ting we do! how do you fall into another relationship so fast! please teach me! i want to noe! all those words, and now you are tellin me it white lies. lyin to you mean no harm at all. but wat i did can be replace till then i noe wat i was wrong. why do i blog so long everytime? why must my heart still be with you? why do i itchy hand go see her blog? why do i itchy hand go message her but yet bring hurt for all her messages and make me cry? i hated my hand. play ball! rubbish! i don't wanna play anymore. i touch it seldem now. tell me are you still wif me? i tink about u everytime, i be taking your time, till the day you make me reliese, tat for you there won't be no one else, i gonna have you all myself, i will take good care of you. no matter wat is it u goin though, believe in me once again please, pinish me or i will die for wat i hav done, i don wan to live without you. so wat can i do? tell me please. well today meet jas eat. rot. smoke. tat all i can do for my life! smoke till i die! tha more pain i will be more happy. anyway livin in my life is jus fun now. nth for me to live on, the reason i gave you. the photo still remind unchange. the heart of mine still remind unmove. the result of you i gave is useless but i will protect you from anyting. as long as one day, i still haven die cause of anyting, one day i haven decide to go oversea, one day i still goin to be useless. i will wait no matter how long. wait is the only word i swear to prove my love for you is really truth from the start till the end. sorry but still please forgive me. my life is goin to change, everything about me is changing, but my heart remind unchange for you, my world is still with you, you are the number 1, top in my heart from 181205 till now. and i swear. you are the girl i love most. never know whats love , till there was you. forgive me and let story start once will you? Sunday, August 27, 2006
, sonearyetsofar. yes i know you hated me for doing that, i know you betray your trust, but do you think i'm happy to do that after all i have done? yes i know you won't forgive but how long do you want this to go on? i'm sorry, nothing to say but sorry that all i had in my mind. i know by saying sorry means nothing. if you really want me to prove it on that how much i love you and how much will i do just for you. i just wanna do something now to prove that i really love you from the start. you are really really the girl that i love so so long. yes one year is long too, but to me memories of us are too many. ya i know you forgive me alot of time. but this time i swear i will try to be a prefect one, not to let you down, not to let you go anymore. i still remeber the day that we first met, the last day we last met. the day met was the day at shaw mac. you give me that kind of feeling that nobody had ever give me. you are the one who took me out from the darkness before where i was. you found me bring brightness, hopes, and love to my world. i know i will stick with you. you told me, you will stick with me as long as jack will not stick with me. but i know that was the past. those present you give me, those m&m, wallet the bag and more. i still keep it. last time i use to spent alot of money and you are the one who control me. well i need ppl to control me but still sometime i maybe too much over it. the i love you you sent to me. cause i wanna make sure that you love me anot. and you sent a page of i love you which nobody did. you say you wish that you could be like jack stead so that you can always be with me, you say cause bestie also need you. yes i know of cause she also need you. everytime you ask me don't go home too late but sometime i will cause i want you to nag at me. you said i can give what bestie cant give you, and same bestie can also give you that kind of love that i can't give. and of cause it different kind of love, you say you really love me alot alot. and that was the first time you say muackz. i really have tears with touch. that was the first time that i ever really feel that i have never feel so wanted. it was long that i wake up from what i have did. but still i don't wish to leave you. i'm being selfish. what wrong with being selfish? well i know there is too much thing to forgive me. but just this one last time. love can't fade so soon,memories can't be ease so fast, the feeling can't se replace so easy, the moment of touch too hard to forget. but still i won't try to forget those good time. cause i know who i need, i know who i want. i hate to see couple walking pass me, i hate that kind of feeling when ppl are happily with their partner. but truth i oso feel happy for them. that day i see fireworks, the are so many couples. seeing those loving fireworks. there are so many thing we haven done. best friend also quarrel but they quarrel had never say break up. but it the end they are still those sweet lovely couple. i mean they are like never say bye that kind. they quarrel over lame thing, maple la, they even fight, scold those ****. but still they are so loving la. is not me who use excuse like smoking don't wanna let you know. all ppl will tell their love one they will quit but they will still smoke. i mean smoking is not a bad thing after all. but untill the day where our love one know that we smoke we of cause say we don't wanna quarrel, don't wanna let you worry but it truth but passive don't believe. yes we promise we don't smoke, in the first place we don't even need to promise right. but it a kind of don't wanna let you worry or what. i love the way i stare at you but you don't like that kind of expression. i may irrite you sometime. but still i love the way you are. just the way you are. what is wrong is already wrong. if you know that it is wrong then don't let it happen again. and this of cause won't happen anymore. i don't want in the end all this happen. my world is prefect to have jasline, guan hong, best friend, maple, but it not prefect without you at all. is truth that basketball took my life, but soon i know you over take my life too. i know what is the right thing in my life and wrong thing i have done. let it be the past and i won't repeat anymore. angelangel, girlgirl, whereareyou, ineedyouso, itbeensolongthatyouhavebeengone. pleasecomebackhome. well blog about this few day?yeah my maple name simsokyin is already level 33 le. haha. fighter man. sorry guan hong and jasline yesterday i PS your wor. i really didn't mean it but think back i really never pei sze hui and jialing. i mean even tot they are couple but i already stick with them for quite long out of sudden never meet them, then they really wish that we all could like go jialing house to watch cd. just this simple thing that they want us to do. yes supper i know i meet guan hong one, but can your just don't go two way? it hard to choose one way to go. i want both side but why this kind of thing happen? haiz. parents lost hope on me. that kind of feeling. well my mum ask me that day why don't i wanna go back to school and i told her i'm not in the mood to go back yet. she told me she already lost hope on me. that day you went to my house they saw and they know about us already. cause my wallpaper in my phone the wallpaper in my computer, and they know. it like my mum somehow already. well, after that she saw me crying at night and she ask me why? i told her my friends, which i lie. and she ask me say if whoever can make me go back to school she really will beg that person. well it useless. i let my mum down. i'm sorry mum. my n level? i can take the paper back blank and give you back. and i will tell my mum. please give me a break. forci me gonna be useless. if a useless person it got no use anymore. a hopeless person can nev be useful anymore. my brain already stop long ago. my heart hav alreadydead in studies. nothing will make me happy anymore. i don't wanna be a useless person but i can't help it. hanging on the thread and holdin on, i don't know how long i will wait but till the day that you forgive me everything will be back asap. sorry mum. well then when jialing house see battle rage, wa, it so cool can. killing their own class mate, then use different weapon, so cool la. they have to kill each other to suriov, the last one who have not been dead will win. well, they really kill each other like mad. hmm. even friend they also kill la. this meaning is like saying "treat nobody in this world." quite true la. hmm, then see the scary movie 4 funny but too bad i see it before le. haha. well i hope i will get the chance to have this kind of outing and play game to kill each other take different kind of weapon la. so cool can. not that i'm sick but is truth right. i mean you won't get a chance to play this kind of game? haha. jasline say i'm sick. well i'm not ok. but still it cool. haha. hmm. well after that sleep at jialing house. hmm, after that went chong pang to eat chicken rice with best friend. go buy fishin rot. goin crazy for fishing? nah. not so soon. after seven month. now maple season for all of us. haha. hmm. after tat try to play lan at there to wait for jialing as she is playin manjong with her friend, when me and best friend go play lan, first go north point play sad to say no maple la. hmm. so play CS. then after tat went to this lan shop open by BANGLA. sux man. i think i'm recist but truth to say the computer sux. it like lagging like hell? waste then my house? well after tat BTH. go taman. yeah. my favo lan shop la. i tink here the lan shop is the best. hmm. now im still ther. and den later no need sleep lo. 1.30 pm meet jasline eat breakfast, OH GOD, i 11am meet guan hong go sentosa! how? tell me? where to go? tell me la! haiz. well soon i will try not to PS anyone. hmm. take care guys. update soon. i will wait to prove my heart is truth, the hardest thing i ever do, to turn around and walk away, pretend that i had never love you before. Friday, August 25, 2006
,message for yanling. deep down my heart. i'll take this chance i'll make a choice i'll right this wrong i'll raise my voice if it means we'll be together for a while. if u said jump, i'd say how high if u said run, i'll run and fly just for the chance, just for the moment should the moment pass us by. if ever anyone asked me why i chose u i'll have this to say - because in u, i see the part of me, i've always been afraid to know. n u're so beautiful, if i had to choose again, i will choose u everyday. i swear this three words, iloveyou will only meant for you. this five words, i'll be there for you i swear to you. i know i have hurt you before, but i really swear that you are the one i'm looking for, i didn't want you to get hurt but truth to say i reall wan you to forgive my wrong and i reall wan you to give me a chance. i hope you someday will know. watch shane and carmen story. L word. lesbian show but so sweet. this prove that lesbian oso can be forever and get married please.and carmen forgive wat shane do wrong. and they live happily. shane is damn cool but she flirt. too flirt but carmen say "if i love you, i will forgive wat you did and don't betray my trust anymore. i really wish this will be the ending. of us. singapore idol. paul twohill rox. support him. cool man. =) , lying by meaning no harm. why must you take those word so seriously? it jus some talk, i know you won't but instead i'm the one who is crying back to you. yes those crap i say i know you hated me alot now. but true to say i reall reall don't wish tat to happen at all. ya my lyin skill sux, but sad to say it not mine. thankz to my best friend last time. i choose the wrong way of it. only best friend know. wat am i goin to do? just pull my head down and keep quiet after all. those cuz the fact ting already happen long time ago. but i noe wat is already wrong at the point. so wat for carry on. let go of one and carry on. yes i know. flirt len to the wrong way of life. but still it growin up ting. til now i hope i can grow up more can see ting better. life is like a game. if you pass you will pass every stage in your life but fail and tat goes everything. it true to say tat. don't desever wat? i don't get? but truth to say some story is not truth at all. those rubbish of those. well if you love that person you will forgive what he or she did wrong that wat jack told me. but i told her say, she won't i guess. if time can go back now. choosin the wrong path len to the wrong ending. J** mislen me by all she can. but truth to say i give up and not telling tat bung is not better den me. well today meet haixin and jas again rot as we could. night cat like we use to. giving up on studies. and try the best to hold back relationship. well haixin is worst den others. ps len her by makin her hangin at ther don't know don wat. hmm. well i gues passive are like tat ba? hmm. bung can choose the way they wann go but passive got more right to make you go which way. well all this moment we are like so sad. well, me? i now walking this way is lik same lik daddy can. forever is forever la. wat she did is same like wat i did. wat other did len us here now. lost forest. middle of no where to go. blur sheep of us. but still we choose to hold on. well jas le, mislen for all she can, and tat len hr holdin on? or giving up? no bloody idea of us. haixin worst. got stead like no stead can. hmm, treat her cold and hot as and when her gal like. sad. i just don'y understand, why you runnin away from me? why you wann turn you back on me, why you already giving up, i know you've been hurt but i swear i'll never let you down, you can call me sefish but all i wan is your love, you can cal me hopelessly cuz i'm hopelessly in love, you can call me arn't prefect but whose prefect? tel me wat am i gonna do to prove that i'm the only one for you. so wat is wrong being selfish. till the day i make you reliese,why do you keep us apart, why would you give up your heart, you know we are meant to be, tel me wat am i gonna do to prove that your the only one i see in my heart. i'm really very sorry for what i have did, but at least this burden in my heart have been down. and now facing the most diffcult part, saying nothing but i'm sorry. forgive me, let me prove and i won't let you down nor broke your heart. time prove everything. Thursday, August 24, 2006
, those posts of our in your blog. if you tink i really love this kind of feelin by hurtin you so much den i'm so sorry to say no, i don't tink it very nice. i really noe wat is wrong now. but wat can i do now! nth is gonna happen next all is hurt she gave me and leave to me. wat "dearest dearest,sweetheart,pig. all this is wat? tellin me you take two,three day to forget everything? wat am i to you? writing all my feelin to you. bustard! ME! ya, wat got wrong together la, den when ting happen everything is ME! really regret all this months man! you really make me see the truth colour out of you. thankz alot ho. helpin me deny, askin me to walk tat path, but yet now everything seem to be my fault! you have no fault in it. well nev min, i won't believe nor try to do wat ppl tell me to! not anymore! i hated when this kind of friend! if you had a friend please see clearly who he or she is if not in the end it will turning back and tell you that he or she had nev treated you as a friend. this really really make me feel tat don trust ppl too much. you meant not noe wat will happen next. ya la, you always tinking tat i nev tot of ppl feelin la. all this la. nev tot wat will happen la. as if you got tink. if one day i backstrab you, you won't lik the feelin. just wait for someday. someone, but not me. it gonna be truth. i don't care wat is gonna happen. but this had enough out of me. best friend can i trust you? hmm. let me tink. ai wo hai shi ta, let me tell you wo ai de shi BU YAO. nobody else will take place of wher you are standing in my heart. please help me take of the pain soon. it really hurtin me. hand pain, leg pain, every part of the pain can't take over the pain in my heart. i swear this are not crap but truth from my heart. that all i had for you, not crap please. those i love you from the start till the end is reall reall truth i swear i nev lie or crap to just you. so you tink if all this crap i will even bother to meet you. so u tink i will even waste my money to sent all those message to you? so you tink i will take my time in school to make all those ting for you? NO. you can even overtake studies in my heart, movin on to second place, but soon you overtake basketball and move on to first this really means alot already. as you can see i had nev reall play ball already. but why? i tink your blog tat song means more for me. please let me take over your heart once again. and i will lock up and nev be overtake. i won't let things go off from my mind, jus let you to tink how i really love you. no matter how far, my heart will be true from now, jus for you. my baobei, yanling. , if time could rewind time and things will get better. god let me know how long do i still have to wait? this song "selfish" i love it alot. haiz. i really really didnt meant to do tat. yes, i know i'm a bustard. but still i really love you only. but tings seem to get worst after all. well i'm like blogging at this time? 6.50 AM? i'm running from school, running from home. running away from everything in my life. but still i can't choose to from your shadow. i hated when i tink of us. i hated when i go place which make me tink of you. girl, i know u hated me. i know you really don't feel like talking to me. but gal, i'm really really crawling back to you. i really swear tat i won't do tat anymore. not again. please let me prove. well. haixin ask alot of ting la. hmm like she say : - wat if one day, you saw your gal and her guy walk pass you in the street? " well, i answer " i will hide? but still i will walk pass them? if they hold hand i will cry and if i really lost control i will hit the guy no matter what lost or win. den i will talk to her i guess? hmm, then jasline ask " - if one day she came crying back to you and what will you do? " well i say " i will tink of saying sever her right? but still i will feel heart pain? ya, den after tat i will like ask her don't be sad all this. cause she choose to give up on this relationship not me? jasline added : -what if you got stead, and she came back, but still have feeling her? " of cause i will have feeling for her still. but if i have a stead? i will like let the three of us break of a time? and if the one will let go will lose i guess? but of cause i won't history repeat!!! and i guess i will like won't have stead for that moment untill i lost the feeling totally for her? ya well after all those joke we had, went to jasline house to see HOSTEL? wa, damn gross can. thankz daddy ho, she la. say wat hostel one. first PON! second, drill the body, den cut somewhere around your heel? den after tat cut fingers! wa gross la. haha. well to me this is wat friends are for when u r sad, u needed them, but friends may backstrab too. haiz. why do ppl promise but break it as and when they like? sleepin during days, rotting during night? is this gonna be my life? am i really gonna be a hopeless person? this is what you len to me, this is what i will prove tat i'm a hopeless person?what is wrong for being selfish? haiz. this message is for you. i guess you will be happy as you are like now? but i'm not. i'm sure i have my wrong, you also. but too bad. if seem tat always is tat person who love the most get hurt, but do you get hurt? cuase i'm hopelessly in love. but someone please stop lening me on! i'm so so so lost already. all i want is you. tat happen like at the 5 months of us? but i know wat is wrong already! i really know and i really regret! i really hate to do tat! how could this ever happen to me! i guess this is growin up. all i wan is to protect you, love you, but still i fail. can u ever had tat kind of feeling bein len on like tat! havin a friend say she don't even treat you a friend in the first place. please this is wan u as me to do! please u even help me can! and now u r doin this! wat friend! i'm not blamin you, but am i right! i reall don noe why do this king of ppl r lik this! gal, i may not message you but still i love you. sorry line being cut. no line to use. sorry for wat i had done, i swear tat this won't happen, i really treasure you now. i'm hopelessly in love, selfish to keep you. i hope you will understand, i really love you wif all my heart. my only one. yanling. Tuesday, August 22, 2006
, i'm really very sorry. i'm sorry tat i did tat, but still i tell you...i mean lik i don wann keep it anymore...i tot tellin you will be better cuz i don wann hide it anymore...but yet...i nev tell u oso lik tat i say le u oso lik tat...i reall reall love you alot..well if u reall don believe i will take my torn N level paper and giv u...i swear...if u still don't believe tat i won't do tat anymore den i will dig out my heart and i swear i throw into your face...this is wat i meant tat only u i will give... here i sream my lung out,and try get to you, you are my only, i let go, ther is jus no one get me lik u do, cuz you're my only one, i will leave a note for u, my only one. there is three word i wanna let you noe, i love you.. there is five words i will swear to you, i'll be there for you.. i will wait for you... im reall ver sorry i didnt meant to hurt you... i love you reall... update soon... blog got problem... Saturday, August 19, 2006
, thanks for all your lie. i hated liar now. haiz...if feeling will fade away den i wont be here gal...haiz...it so easy fro you but not me u get it...im diff from u...i can stick wif a gal ver long but im not lik u...thankz for sayin u wann be open...if u wann be open den your friendster will be lik not single can...haiz...if it lik tat,tat guy r lik wont be here la...i reall hated guy alot...fucker lo...haiz...stop sayin ting about guy in front of me...every bung hated guy la...why this king if fuckin ting happen...damn lo...i hate to see couple can...haiz...i hate alot of this...stop tellin me to move on, and stop all your crap...thankz ho..i reall hate but love you at the time...i noe is crap but it real...haiz...i can wait for sokyin den i oso can wait for u too...i don see a point tat if u still lik a person den why let go...thankz for jumpin into relationship so damn fast...mistaken and mistaken...thankz ho...haiz...life is a cycle... thankz winnie for tellin me so much la..haiz...i noe she is not worth it...i love her so much but did she noe?SHE DON'T...if u reall can find someone who is willin to do all those ting lik i do...or even better den good for u lo...u can find someone who love u MORE THAN i reall do...den fine la...i don see a point...haiz...givin me a chance thankz lo...haiz...if hai xin can touch ps wif those rose...if everyone can touch it but u don't...stop lyin will you...jas already say even if she is touch she oso wil say she wont...since she take me for granted den why am i still in the trap?god let me tell u i don noe...haiz...den thankz ho...im so so lost...i don see a need why mus ting lik tat...why is it repeatin?i don understand wat the hell is happenin...haiz...god damn la...well life is so so bored...school sux....i hated everything... thankz for lyin ho... i love it so much... i don't noe wat is goin wrong wif u.. get the hell out of me...please... Tuesday, August 15, 2006
, well life is not reall back- but it better abit now. quite a long post...from NDP day to day... hmm...now blogging my house tat fucking com can throw away le...haha...hmm let start wif NDP day ba...hmm..sian lo...tat day went to eat steamboat at marina wanted to see firework...happily go ther den guess wat..daddy wann go find back mummy cuz they break up..daddy call and call mummy nev pick up the phone sia...hmm...so went city hall...den i miss the firework DAMN...hmm...nev min after tat took cab down to marina again...meet them hmm...rot at ther...damn lots of ppl can...so smoky ther..den went home ba...some of them...hmm... den on don noe wat day went to explanet see firework...hmm...well so many ppl cuz last day...went wof niang,karin,jaslin,joe...hmm...good...den everyone lik squeezein la...damn lo...den i only stand one spot cant move...haiz...den me and joe ver happy cuz got a spot can see the firework den everyone sqeeze again...den move move move...den firework start...damn bloody ting was...hmm...ONE FUCKIN TREE THER....wa lou...ver pek chek can...haiz...nev min lo...after tat went to MS den niang karin joe went home...only me, jas, best friend and her stead jia ling of cuz...haha...hmm...den sit at the MS ther...tinking wat to do wher to go la...haha...den i ver bored start o play wif the excalator lo...den they all pretent don noe me...wa lou...haha...cuz i go up and down...haha...den took Best friend phone to listen to BAD don't say goodbye...haiz...this song reall make me go crazy...singing my feelin out la...hmm..nev min...den i start to rot as they tinking wher to go...i start to sing loud loud la cuz ver happy la cuz of something...worst they stand lik so damn far from me la...wa lou....den we say wann go eat lo....the mango ice,starryberry ice la...hmm...wat the hell eating for the second time duron the day......hmm...went explanet sudd mood swing cuz tink alot of ting...hmm...after tat went to MS oso hav...hmm...cuz make me tink of alot of ting la...den after tat went to eat at don noe wat restane la...hmm...den eat happily ther...haha....after tat went to cine play lan lo...den go no wher le lo...haha... well the next day sleep till nite den went to taman play lan wif best friend and jas...hmm..play till morning la...den after tat went to school to take prelim...damn lo i miss my prelim for friday one...haiz...chinese and eoa i guess...haiz...sad...im goin to fail...but nev min at least this time i noe...hope i wont forget my N level can le...haha...hmm...sian lo...after tat went to sleep half way crazy gh and katek sudd call ask me go cycle so i went to taman wif them la...den took alot of photo wif them la...haha...hmm...den after tat i went to meet best friend and ps katek and gh...to sell bike...in the end didnt sell...nev min...den meet gh go jas new house paintin but in the end go ther see show la...wa lou...we three ver ham can...cuz i buy one show damn scary lo...haha...den all ver scare can...hmm...den mornin me and gh clear up her house...haha...after tat i meet best friend and now we are playin maple...update soon... , i'm ver tired save me i need sleep , thanks for giving me tat chance... , i will treasure it... , 99 rose are done - my hand are aching.. , i will do anything to get this relationship back... , 7month and days.... , how long, i miss you... Friday, August 11, 2006
, it not easy to let go, do you noe. well im bloggin at this hour of 6?morning?cuz waiting for my maple to patch finish ?i rmb i had a dream tat i was lik play too much game den after tat i dream tat part was lik loading and i dream of patchin..cuz i reall wanted to patch up wif her la...den patching was completed den i was wif her i was so happy can...but i still cry cuz it was jus a dream...i wish tat this kind of thing was happen...haiz...but it wont..haiz...forget it den...well today went to settle ting la...haiz...den after tat go meet jas eat le rot...hmm..well i nev tot i will lik cry in front of jas...haiz...i reall nev cry so badly before...i don noe why this relationship im still holdin on..haiz...as jas say tat she is so cold hearted...haiz...i don noe...i don noe why im still holdin on..i was so dumb toask wat if i touches her heart...and i get hurt in the end again...haiz..everyone got a chance to jio the gal u lik...haiz..but i don noe why i jus cant la..haiz...i wanted to...and this bloody ting was jus prove tat bung r better den guys...wat guy always on mind is jus wann hav sex wif gal...tat all and i totally agree...as my frien had once before...haiz...and nw as u can see all guy are gay are gal turn crook...i mean lik no harm rite?i don noe why ppl jus tink it cant last lonjg...is jus the happy time they had?and this make me even hate guy more...why in this world got guys?i hope they will all jus go and die la...haiz...now is lik breakin up season...haiz...everyone is breaking up?when can we ever had patchin up season?i wann had tat first!!!!! well no point lettin a relationship go lik this when is lik so happy can?ya we are still young...u can tell me this but wat r u doin now?happily wif your guy...and hurtin me lik hell...im not blaming...but everytime u hurt me i don noe why i jus don wann let go...u can happily say lenon to life without you la...find another better gal la...carry on wif life la...well TO YOU IT IS EASY BUT TOO ME IS IS DIFF CANT YOU SEE?????stop askin me carry on wif life...daddy u wann die ask me to...i reall reall wan die...the pain is reall hurtin me lik hell...why got this word pain in this world or mayb why should hav this word break?daddy say is rite...lettin go to them is easy...and nw we noe why we hurt so much and we intend to cry but not them cuz...they let go easily but wat we bung get?cryin and cryin lik hell but do they noe?do they feel sad?NO THEY DON AT ALL...do they even tink of how we feel?NO THEY TOTALLY DON...we cry because we work so gard foe relationship and we give in so much to them...but wat did we ever get?we jus wan ting to be simple?jus a simple love and it will do?if you reall love me alot?and got another guy come u get touch so easy?but we don!i can swear tat even if my favo TERESA love me...i reall wont jus let go of you and stead wif her...cuz this kind of ting i noe...im happy wif who i wan...im happy wif my life you and my best frien and basketball...even if i hav to let my eveything go jus to hav you back...im willing...jus let me hav you and my best frien...tat all i wan...so simple..i wan no nth...jus you...spare some feelin on me and tink...memories are memory to keep...yes...but not as if u tink all those sweet time we had all those tink we do..r u happy?if takin photo will end our relationship...THANK i don wann take photo anymore..i wan this relationship to carry on..i don wann go home cuz at home ther are ting we done so sweet..i don wann go school cuz my table is full of your name and i will cry...i throw my phone cuz all those message u sent are lies...i hated myself cuz i cant even CONTROL THE RELATIONSHIP....wat more can i reall do?alot of my frien say this kind of gal not worth it la..cuz so fast jump into relationship...can change her love so fast...and now i reall hated those gal who jump into relationship so fast...but i jus cant hate you u noe...haiz...i don noe why...but i jus cant...im still holdin...if you want tat ting to belong to you once again u hav to fight for it and not jus wait ther...ya i noe...but does she noe after i did so many ting to her?she don even wann see and jus say tat one last chance she oso don wann giv...how i reall feel... KILL ME PLEASE.. I HOPE I WALK A CAR BANG ME DOWN I HOPE I GO OVERSEA THE PLANE JUS CRUSH AND I DIE I HOPE SOMEONE CAN JUS TAKE THE KNIFE AND KILL ME I HOPE I CAN CUT MYSELF EVEN MORE DEN DIE I HOPE I WAN HAV ANY SICKNESS TAT KILL ME TO HELL CUZ OF DYIN SOLVE EVERYTHING JUS LET ME DIE INSTEAD OF HAVIN THOSE PAIN KILL ME WIF YOUR OWN HAND I WILL REALL FEEL HAPPIER AT LAST I STILL CAN SEE YOU THE ONE LAST TIME IF I HAVE THE CHANCE TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE DEAD OR ALIVE NO NEED TO TINK I WILL JUS SAY LET ME DIE BUT NTH I CAN DO NOW... JUS ONE LAST BLOODY CHANCE I CANT EVEN HAD WAT AM I???? JUS A PIECES OF SHIT YOU ARE SO HAPPY TO SEE TAT I CRY EVERYDAY, MAKING MYSELF LIK A FOOL HAVING THOSE PAIN YOU GAVE ME THANK FOR ALL THIS IM NOT BLAMING YOU BUT I JUS WANN SAY I STIL LOVE YOU IN THE END...... Tuesday, August 08, 2006
, its hard to let go. love is so easy, but its hard to let go after all...i don noe why..haiz...let talk about wher i go today...hmm...rot at home goin to die..meet jas...well...after tat go find kattek and gh la...play ball...i still love basketball alot...play le den can forget everything la...haha...so fun...hmm after tat go eat alot of ting la...haiz..den go find joyce and daddy go drink...haha...joyce is lik drunk la...and she cry cuz of xiao ping can...haha...well after tat went home...haiz...today so damn bored...life without u sux lik hell can...haiz... well today le...i message her and tell her i miss her...see whether she will reply but i bet she wont de...haiz...mayb to her im dead long ago le...haiz...i don noe if in her mind am i still in her heart?but of cuz in my heart she will be in my mind le...i will nev forget her...forget all the sweet time...sometime i will left her out i noe...haiz...frien of cuz i wan...jus one bestie one jack...i lik owe bestie alot of money can...wann return her fast...haha...hmm...damn la..haiz...im tired of this already...kill me la..haiz...im so so so tired...not because of waiting...haiz...everyone seem to be so happy wif their stead can...bestie and jialing la...haiz...daddy and mummy ver long le wor...haiz...forever four oso goin to be lik dead soon...haha...well nev min.... update till here.... nev say die... im still waiting for the day tat u say u still love me alot.. all those memories.. i will nev forget.. Monday, August 07, 2006
, your love for me is all i need. hmm...ytd we play den after tat me,jialing and best frien go play maple..hmm..den after tat play till afternoon den go home can so damn tired la...hmm...den after tat we go e...i reach home at 3 sleep to 6 hav to wake up cuz i meet jas they all at our house here cuz got campus superstar i go ther support teresa and dean la...haha...den there got karin,niang,jasline,loe,my jie and joyce and jacq lo....hmm..well waited so damn bloody long but me and karin damn high la...haha...for nth we sing the song loud loud la...den sream lik hell...haha...hmm..den after tat play wif the flag..making everybody oso la...haha...well after about 945 den TERESA came out and sing LU and LOVEx3...wa lou i still like her so much can..haha...hmm..den after tat we got zhiyang la...dean we all sream lik hell can...haha..hmm...well dean damn funny la...the song finish le she still wann sing...haha..well indid this is cute la...hmm...den after tat zhiyang and renfred...renfred sing badly today..hmm..don noe why...hmm...after they sing finish we wanted to go eat wif dean la...cuz dean say she hungry but sure cant go out one..so me and karin act toopid again lik wat MIB la...haha...go protect dean...damn funny...we reall make a good work in this kind of ting sia...haha...hmm den dean came out niang faster try to pull her away but too many fans of her so it took 15 min lik tat la...but some we hackcare den jus go lo..hmm..den we and karin act toopid lik we reall MIB la...haha..den after tat two ver bo xin de ppl laugh at me..cuz i walk walk walk den ho my shoe don noe why drop out sia...idiot lo...hmm...den after tat i turn around jie and joyce is lik laugh lik hell la...wa lou...only one shoe...den i "diao " them la...haha...hmm...den went to coffee u eat den dean de fans came oso lo tink jus to see her??well after tat i went to meet best friend lo..wann sell bike but den too late so went ther eat lo..hmm..den talk talk talk till now i reach home..hmm...ok lo...thankz i have been slpin jus 4 bloody hour for two day..im i superwoman...haha... well baobei i wann watch movie lik we use to do...goin out holdin your small hand lik we use to do..i reall wish tat time can rewind to the beggin and i will ba ver happy...i wdon wan tings to happen lik this...i don noe why i change so much..i jus don noe why..but is all because i reall love you alot...haiz...nev min den..allthose memories..wont be ease at all...but i jus love you too much la...haiz...those sweet time i treasure everything at u n me had together before...haiz...well i don care wat other say i wont care wat ppl do...but they jus cant stop my love for lovin you yanling...tat all i noe myself clearly...nth else le...haiz...baobei...i need you so so so bad....i miss you so much..my surprices for national gone waste...my surprice came to a big hurt instead...but im still waiting...waiting tat those day will be back soon...and it is real soon...i swear... -i love you .but you will nev be replace -i miss you ,but not as other reall do... my heart only got yanling, my heart of room is too small, one ba0bei one best friend one jack one basketball.... Sunday, August 06, 2006
, where did you go. i miss you so. hmm...gh say i nev update my blog den i shall update ba...hav been painting at jas house for lik years to us...haha...well...we had alot of fun la...haha...gh nearly fell down...damn funny la...haha...nev take down how ugly la...haha...hmm...den ver tired went to slp...thankz lo jas...u ho...i at the bed at first den after tat at the floor cuz she push me den i down ther lo..thankz ho jas...haha...i will rmb de lo...hmm...den after tat huiling and her stead came...cherly la...haha...sweet lovly couple...but they oso damn funny can...haha..we was painting half way den after green at her living room...den ok den went to sleep at nite...haha...den we goin to like u noe sleep den cheryl and huiling sweet sweet went out la...den i don noe why i lock the door throw them outside living room,they lik ver ppo ting hug each other and share one so small de sofa...haha...hmm...well nev min la...hmm...in the end still lik tat...den go shelly birthday at first it was fun but ting turn bad...hmm...well i don wann say...haiz...jus forget it den...well im so struck in the middle...hmm...i don wann move jus lik in malaysia and singapore middle la...haha...see who wan me den i go lo...haha...haiz...well after tat went home play maple till now morning still playin...haiz...studies?i don noe...hmm...well to me nth is more important den her...i can don care of anything jus for her...haiz..so damn tired and bored but nev min la...hmm so update till here damn hungry...maybe i will len i useless life and hopeless ppl but...haiz... -take care baobei. -i will wait for u , where did you go. Wednesday, August 02, 2006
, nothing gonna change my love for you. , nothing gonna change my love for you. don't say goodbye B.A.D well ytd was quite fun,never had so much fun before...haha...well i went to meet best friend at morning eat breakfast...didnt go school...damn bloody tired can...haiz...hmm...den eat le after tat we tinkin go wher...den i say i don wann go home go taman jurong play lan lo...haha...everyday lik tat...hmm...den play from 10 to 6...hmm...expensive sia...but nev min...haha...maple maple maple...hmm..thos ewho say maple ver childish one ho...reall don noe how the fun is...haha...well den after tat go hke find jas and gh..hmm...after tat we go eat den me,gh and jas...go buy painting de ting la...haha...den after tat go paint jas new house...reall had alot of fun ther..niang ver nice buy food for us..cuz we come help out mah..den tat idiot jasline fai...play wif the paint when before tat we already say don wan le la...idiot sia..she play on me first den after tat i tell jas go make gh den we play untill the whole house hav la...wat the hell..den she go write one no 9 on her wall PINK but when is purple la...haha...and of cuz i write YANLING la...haha...hmm...so sian sia...den after tat hai xin came???shock tat she will neet us...she and her stead still ver sweet la...well i tink of her sometime i tink of myself...haha...alot of ppl say say look lik me..but of cuz ppl say jasmine ,i miss you so... ,don leave me here... ,my phone didnt go wrong... ,but it jus didnt ring... ,everytime it ring i ver exited but dissapointed...haiz... ,i love you... |
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