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Thursday, January 31, 2008
with you,with you! tml schooling! i miss my stead doing irritating things. haha. oh well i guess today was a tiring day. bored and nothing to do. but okay. i'm in love "with you", i mean the song not you, so don't think too much! haha. it's nice. i guess nothing will help, so stop helping. cause i'm running and screaming. i talk to "her" again and i'm really confuse. zozo told me this, i guess you're not good in friendship thing, cause all you know is running away from the problem. yes, alot of others are trying to help you, but are you helping yourself? if friends they won't leave you in this state, but yet walk with you and teach you what is the right thing. yes, by scolding you they're doing the right thing, by telling you what you have done wrong is doing the right thing. but somehow the tone of it is something wrong, not everyone is the same, same as in, not everyone will work on this tone. like me, my friends talk to me in a soft way because i don't take the hard way, as they know me well. maybe you're still young and they're still young to think of this. you're still young to think of anything now, friends i believe do come and go. not much friend are willing to pull you up from where you have fall, but most will laugh at you. i don't know much about your friends, but i believe they still somehow care for you? at least they bother to reply. if you really treasure friendship and want to salvage them, think of a much better way. if they don't take it, just leave them alone. i don't know why they walk away instead of telling you what is right, what is wrong. but yet want you to find out yourself. i can't comment much but i wish you to think about it. i'm confuse now. maybe telling a older one how you feel it's good, cause somehow they went thou all this. but i guess whatever they say it don't work on the younger one's. which i believe it's age gap. this post is for you i believe you know who are you, well a ECP was the very last day you talk to me, and then i see no more. which i don't know what happen, one moment you talk to me so happy, next moment i found that you're gone. but somehow i felt that you're trying to have a fight with me. cause i can't hear the tone you're trying to tell me, but i only can see. then what are those rubbish i hear? never mind i don't wish to blow things up i juz wan u to understd e pain of being betrayed.to wake u up. yes and all those rubbish i hear is something like back to me? and i can feel how it hurt to be being betrayed. i can feel it right now. and you have wake me up. that part of the "don't bother to message me if you wanna say never mind" and what you want me to say? want me to be so thick skin to die die reply you when you sounds like you don't even wanted me to message you in the first place. (this is how i feel about this message and my feeling for it.) okay okay, if let say i do thing never tot of your feelings. let take sh down and say then, whatever i did last time to her, i also never tot of her feelings, but what did she did after all? she told me. but did you? you told me nothing about anything. which i don't even know what happen. i giv u chance to explain n yet u sae nvm, m i juz so worthless tt u can sacrifice anytym? if you think you're so worthless to me, then i can't stop you from thinking that way. you never say that you give me a chance to explain myself. all you told me the very last day was " i will stand by you help you along which your very last message of the word brother behide" i can hardly forget it. if i don't even wanna salvage anything between us, yesterday i won't be so damn hell sad and PS amy all this, just because of you. i won't have think of ways how to talk to you. yes i know i'm trying to say myself untill i very noble, but take it or leave it then. tt im nt even worth ur explanations? like when i can explain myself when one tell me, ahya jiamin talk to them la! ahya message them la! ahya let them cool down first then talk to them la. ahya jiamin wait untill they talk to you la. okay, tell me what to do? all four above? i don't even know which way your take above can. n guess wad? all u tink bt is urself agn? y do i sae so?cuz even when i told u wad m i upset abt, u stil tink tt im upset over u snatching amy? so how can i don't think this way when the whole world is thinking is this and making me think that you're thinking this way. of course i know amy is not a thing. this is what i always told amy. and i can't found others reason that you're upset about. ppl tell me, jiamin you're such a damn bastard. "betrayed" your own borhter BY snatchin amy away, and this is what you called brother. i hear all this. your betrayed is not this meaning i guess and hope so. so let me tell you not everyone know everything. not everyone know what betray you talking about. and this is the only thing i hear and nothing much further than this. i utterly disappointed so dun bother t ask anyone t help u. i've seriously given u enough chances. i believe since you can said this then you can do this. okay then i shall not bother anyone to help me then. and take this, i didnt bother anyone to help me too. cause i really don't know what you want, take it as i'm doing childish thing here, don't know what happen. still young not mature or whatever you can think of me. you said you give chances. okay name them then. where is the chances. when me and amy saw you are huizhi that time, you want me to say hello to your when i know your are avoiding me? to think that you will think i siao one. i don't see any chances and i don't even know there is. i know alot of things don't need to use your mouth and say. but saying is much more clearly then making mind guess? but i don't even know anything about anystuff can? last nite was e last chance, u choose nt t reply. 4GET IT. you ask me don't even bother to message you. and what you want me to say? you sound piss with me then i still so thick skin say, hey zl don't like that la. like what the. sh get all this oso. that's why she choose to talk to me instead. you can ask her anything. she know best when all this happen. like i have said myself, i don't even know when my chances is given. (this is how i feel.) u sae bro is nt juz a word frm ur mouth but ur heart? but thngs u do proves tt e previous sentence is juz RUBBISH. okay, thing i did in the past was in the past. which i don't know. i taking chances and chances for me to prove, i started schooling, going to work soon. not schooling means you're useless? then got breast is my mum? what rubbish. which i'm not saying you. and when i know that "thing" are coming to the worst end, "thing" flinging aroung thing. i choose not to tell you still. like i told you alot of time i don't wanna drag you in. like how i drag momo like this. and i'm not even angry in the first place. i didn't wanted to end the friendship, but i seriously think you're the one who wanted to draw a line between us. that which i can see it very clearly. to think have given in to you, but yet the first thing i always get was to get scolded. you have given in to me yes, that was the past. not now. you always said you know how i feel but seriously i don't think so. cause the thing you're doind it now, prove that you don't. Wednesday, January 30, 2008
tot making thing better but yet its not. to lose to someone who can even take a bag. lolz. to think i'm a person who did all those thing. i seriously don't know what is friendship. maybe after all i should just scam like how i did now? not running away from them. so what if i take first step talking to them when they haven even forgive me? i should stop saying all this. if not thing will come talking around again. laughing and stabbing will come all around like i believe it will. will try talking to you but i think you think that i'm trying to have a fight here with you. oh well. great what a day today and i'm tired. to think i have my self study for 2 hour at bii house downstair. and i pon school for today! what a day. too tired already and i didn't even sent bii to school. wake up pei mum go eat and stuff. lolz. what a day. i lost everything, b,fb,ling,p,everyone. i'm living in such a lie. in my own world. kinda happy this few days. cause bii you're being missed. i'm schooling now in dover. and i'm happy. i got a very very funny "stead". and alot of "brothers" they treat me like one. but somehow i wanted to study hard. but serious i fail to. . . not because i don't want to but those malay guys are kinda irritating. they like to disturb the teachers which make him cant teach the lesson. and this course is not doing some guard or stuff ya. lolz. having alot of break time like hell. smoke like fcuk. which i think i cant even stop smoking. (sorry bii. i will try my best alright?) but somehow i love my class and those jokers. but i had a feeling that they will have fight soon. very soon. CHINESE VS MALAY. ____________________________________ let go way back to sunday. oh well sunday was kinda a day for me and bii to go tanning. well i can never tan well which i don't know why. and i know i can never. lolz. and my happiness start from this day. =))))) and guess what man! i have to blog this out. BII, WEAR DRESS! JUST TO LET ME SEE! =)))))) (not somekind of sicko.) but i'm kinda shock la. erm after all nobody see a plasmatv wearing dress right? oh well, i was stunt when bii ask me if i wanna see her in dress. but okay. after all i keep laughing at her for some reason. went to bugis to shop for her stuff. oh well, i have to blog this irritating thing out too. at first went to bugis to look for her bag and she bought it, then after that she wanted to buy a shoe which that her hours to think, years to buy. i have to curse and swear this. at bugis topshop, she saw her shoe that she want which is going at $19. but somehow this princess feet is too big to fit in, and so she wanted to go another places to look for it. so we went to town. look everywhere but still no. after one hours later. we went back to bugis to get that irritating shoe like again. (i cut short alot of stories, kinda irritating to say everything.) on sat, me and bii went to bugis like AGAIN, to buy my stuff this time. for school. oh well, i guess we're kinda famous over there? lazy to explain. and went to MS just to eat MAC, and i saw jiayu and her stead i guess? oh well, i have to amit that i got no fate with ZARA. everytime i wanted to go ZARA but fail to. oh ya i think i total scam my mum 200plus? for school stuff and CNY. damn it. today, went to bii house to find her as she cannot go out. raining like hell, and i reach her house wet! i think her ahma kinda like me alot? (being bhb here) but she really very cute la. haha. then eat dinner and head to boon lay with her mum and brother. as this irritating shit broke her specs. and getting a new one. i think me and her mum and the uncle choose that spec for her. i find it nice but i serious don't know if it suits her. and her mum sent me home, to think that she thou i'm huishan. lolz. i'm not! and some idiot make her mum so confuse just to turn into my carpark. bii: mum turn in front there. mum: (happily driving didn't hear, music too loud i guess?) bii: mum turn, turn, turn! mum: huh? huh? huh? turn where? and whose fault it is? never even say right or left and wanted her mum to turn. lolz. but seriously kinda funny la. haha. =))))) i'm headind to bed. school tml untill 4. =(((( Saturday, January 26, 2008
something great in my life. well today bii and me going to buy CNY de clothes. but not going together. haha. i went out with my mum. she going out with QH they all. i today spent my mum 150 like that? lolz. 5 top,1 bams and 2sb. haha. she is so happy today and i don't know why. she got ask what bii like. but i told her i don't know. cause i don't even know what size bii wearing la. hmm, monday still got more to buy ar. haha. she say i go school whatever i want she buy. lolz. BUT not too much la. erm jeans, bag and more. so i think mum will go broke. kind happy i got to school and i need to find work soon! will be stoning at night. lolz, i have been stoning whole day today. bii is enjoying outside. think she buying a dress. she oso got alot to buy lo. tsk. greedy la you. haha. sentosa tml! and tanning! hope bii never forget. and you cannot be darker than me bii! Friday, January 25, 2008
something which i want to show everyone! being force by amytan! yes i got into dover ite. haha. and i met wen bang yesterday. he was nice la. he's also in dover ite. he say that when he get his motor lisence, he will drive me to school everyday! yeah! haha. like i sleep more. plus he sent me home! so damn happy, =) BUT somehow someone don't like or happy la. tsk, just that she don't say out only. haha. and i got to find a work soon! very soon. my mummy wanna thanks amytan, for forcing me to go school! but the fact is, she didn't even help la. and i don't wanna tell my mum. haha. later she hate you to the max ar! i wanna buy alot of thing for CNY! which i think my mum will buy? cause i got into school and she will freaking hell be very happy. =)))) and i have to blog this out somehow? i promise amytan, when i go school! i won't anyhow anyhow, (anyhow as in flirt with girls.) lolz. that is what she say. if not she break ties with me =( but i promise her that no matter got how many pretty girl, i will only LOOK at them la. which i think she's okay with it? as that part that if i flirt in school she don't know. i will prove to you that i will stick to her everyday. firstly, sent her to school like how i use to everyday? (somehow la) secondly, sent her home everyday too. (something like that la.) lastly, stick with you untill you cannot take it i tell you! and she want me to blog it out, to let everyone see. to be her witness! haha. she say she's more FAITHFUL & DEVOTED THAN ME. hahaha. PROVE IT BII! ______________________________ today when to meet mae and her two friends, Alicia & Agacia which is like damn funny. and bii of course. then wen to cck to watch match. saw jingting at cck inter. and that shasha and her friends? which is like my sisters friends. hahahaha. world is so small. and reach there watch jurong vs NYG. in the end jurong won. me and mae was like so hungry la. lolz. then went to lot 1. eat LJS. with jingting shasha they all. okay i shall blog out what shasha and her friends say. jiamin is shuai, amy is pretty~ (pui ar) and they two very pei! lolz. okay and guess what. SHE TOLD MY SISTER TOO! lolz. this is kinda lame but happy. went back to find mae and a&a at pasta. i swear the two of them make me laugh like hell. and they make me think of me and gh. seriously. i don't know why. i had never really laugh out loud now. but today they did. and i swear they're damn funny and clown. haha. then huizhi and xiaoyuan came. headed alot of places. then went mae house, and home! ________________________ i feel kinda weird today. i don't know why. but something like so close yet so far that kind of thing? i don't know why i don't wanna open my bloody mouth to jsut say hello to you. but somehow i wish to. just like last time. i miss those old good day with you. something like BF and GF? lolz. but now it's over. way too over. i don't dare to talk to you, or maybe don't wish to piss you off. after all nobody wanna see me and amy together. but never mind. at least there is stil friendship in my heart. just wish to let you know that is not that i don't wanna talk to you. but it's just that i don't know how to face you. that's all. i'm sorry. Thursday, January 24, 2008
kinda irritated today. lolz. like what that bitch say in her blog. we have a "family fight"? kinda lame la. but never mind. down and down and down which it can never go up. and i swear it will never. not giving up. but that is the fact. oh ya, and bii. don't think only you take photo of me. i oso got take photo of you. haha  to think that way too. oh ya, going down and down and down. but never mind. this post is for my sisters that bitch first! you bitch, better don't let me know if you're with that jenny i tell you. i will make sure i kill you. not selfish but don't want you to go with her. i make sure you die ar. everytime ask you then pretend watch tv ar. tsk idiot le you. better watch out ar. i know you know my stead is who. don't think that mummy know about me and my stead then jiu can anyhow ho you! better watch out ar. i mean what i say. and this whole post is for momo. to think that you still standing beside me for all this while. i love you momo. but after all i'm sorry. i hope whatever i said to you i will do it. but whatever it is. to think that you are still standing but me, telling me what to do. thank you momo too! AND be proud you are at the top of amytan! to bii, i know you had never stop telling me what to do. never give up on me. i know you love me. i know i must prove it. i will too okay? cause you are the one who's pushing me to a better side. you are the one who help me like no others did. thank you biii! =))))) to mae, don't give up one yourself okay? i know i'm saying this to you but yet i'm doing this to myself. i'm not leaving you. i never say i wan hippo, i don't wan you. no matter what happen. you can tell me. after all you're still my mae. nobody is giving up on you and leave you okay? AND to hippo! thanks for being there for me too, somehow? i don't know what should i say. but thanks for being there too. no matter what i still need to thank you. but if you to forget me, i will be understanding. okay? Wednesday, January 23, 2008
something i learn from mae teacher. All close relationships will go thru' this cycle: closeness, hurt, forgive, forget, and closer again. And it's normal and healthy. That's why when Peter asked Jesus, how many times must he forgive someone? Jesus answered, not 7x, but 70x7... ie. EVERYTIME. Becauses we are not perfect, we will always hurt each other no matter how much we try not to. But does it mean we avoid all relationships and become a hermit. God forbid, NO! Instead every cycle is for us to learn something about ourselves and others so we can be wiser and hopefully do better in the next relationship. And u know what's the funny thing? We will always make the same mistakes unless we learnt from it and do things differently... Life is a learning process, and all relationships r opportunities for us to learn more abt ourself and others and GROW. And all growth have some level of discomfort... Like riding a bicyle... People who are afraid to get hurt and don't learn from their mistakes can't improve and GROW. But some people fall so badly that they can't get up again... To prevent that from happening, having the support of loved ones is so important... When someone is truly sorry, it is only right to forgive and forget... So we must forgive others and ourselves too. Guilt is a result of our conscience, which is good. But prolonged guilt is of BAD. Tuesday, January 22, 2008
i can hardly trust nobody now. kinda only for one person in this whole post. but some are for others. not trying to find a fight, but kinda seriours on how i feel. seriourly i don't know what is happening now. i seriourly see thou alot of friends. good one and bad one. i don't wish to blow thing up by writing stupid things here. i don't know who is leaving and who is not. but i can see clearly and feel it. i really should open my eyes big like how babi say. forgive and forgot? lolz, saying but don't mean anything. today i saw darling de bicycle ride by a china guy. and i didnt do anything about it. but after that i thou of alot of thing. i still rmb how your phone lost. and i still rmb how that stupid idian guy slap deardear face. all this are just nothing now. nothing at all. now leaving like i cant even see the shadow, no i won't blame anyone but myself. join those rubbish and i'm not disaapointed? oh ya great. thing are like so duh now. lolz. hear thing and feel so upset. so what if i put friendship first? lolz. don't mean anything right? i guess who's going i will understand. what take the first step? if disaapoint is the only word to solve or run, then i got nothing better to say. cause in the end you still leave. and join the crowd, which my mum got gave birth to me with EYES! lolz. i don't know what is this. and i guess if they wanna forgive and forget thing is kinda hard la. still say what you understand but when you don't. don't say stand by me when you don't. join the group work and lolz. backstab is very common. and i guess it's very very common soon. which i know all this will happen. lolz, don't just say when you seriours don't mean it. some kind ppl tell me this when in msn. true friend stand by you when you are wrong, they len you to the correct wrong and not give up. they will be understanding and tell you what to do. and not leave you when you're down. go and join the crowd. something like that la. cause i told him/her what happen. i got no idea what people are thinking. guess true friends are nothing? i treat them like one. never run but help. they don't know. but yet shit still happen. never mind. people did wrong things too, you don't tell me you don't made mistake. yes maybe not as huge as mine. but stil what you needed most was friend to be there. if friend don bring you to the correct way who will? family? my grandma? ya grandma is good. ahma can bring me along! and leave you just because of you made mistake. and enjoying talking again and again of those rubbish. and hey who don't make mistake? yes i did and it's a huge one which ppl don't accept it. i will understand why you leave. i just know i had never smile happily for friendship. and which YOU think that i'm very very happy now, that is what you ASSUM. ya great. you will never know who does it feel! never will you. i don't wanna quarrel but serioursly you wanna leave it's okay. i won't die die hold your hands and don't let you go, when you don't even wanna see me now. you can see that i'm avoiding you too. who give in and who don't? so what if i give in? at first i did? at that moment was talking happily, and the next moment you join to crowd, and hardly to even see your bloody shadow, tell me did i say things wrong? where are you when i needed you badly as a friend. you will never understand what i mean by i don't wann drag you in. like how i drag momo in when she did nothing, and she get scolded! you will never know how i really feel, don't say you know when you don't know. tell me you'll be there for me when you don't. and happily with your friends. which is i can see it too. yes i can see thing clear now. very clear. you? no..... what a sad answer. not trying to quarrel, AND by not telling me how you feel, what are you angry about, and YOU WANT ME TO GUESS? thanks alot ya. i'm afraid after you help me you will leave. i'm afraid if all this goes back fine, you will leave. now i swear i will put relationship first now. i know you're trying to help. but i guess don need? i don know what more to be say. but you still stand by me prove to me that you really didn't leave. not that i don't wann salvage but it's don't work. i knwo you are there for me. i know you are. i don't wanna vent my anger on you. i don't wanna make you worry. i'm sorry. Monday, January 21, 2008
oh ya i forgot my ahmeng friend!  and here we're! and yes i took photo of HIPPO! JUST FOR WEERONG! more photo to update haha. all this are from girl de handphone. some view in the zoo.   and this is nice too. monkey and baboo.    the small one very cute!  _____________________ and this are for friends.  for my dear hippo! one and only!  JIE! i swear i never forget you too!  i still rmb you okay!  and this is for someone who like it.  and i will never forget about you. _________________________ last but not least, my favo!  i swear i LOVE long long stuff.  which i don noe why. ______________________ i cant believe that i had a bird brother too. idiot sent me some irritating stuff. was talking about CNY stuff. thinking where to go. to city hall see firework? or chinatown? lolz, i see no diff in it. cause still got so many people. and i swear i hate crowded places! and some bird brain say this. new virus ongoing, pls be careful says:must do some crazy things this year new virus ongoing, pls be careful says:arbo we go chinatown new virus ongoing, pls be careful says:den hapy new year new virus ongoing, pls be careful says:we pull down our pants new virus ongoing, pls be careful says:LOLS new virus ongoing, pls be careful says:den take our pants wave in the air new virus ongoing, pls be careful says:happy new year~ i can't deny that me and that dumbass are BROTHERS! says:what the hell i can't deny that me and that dumbass are BROTHERS! says:you go die la i can't deny that me and that dumbass are BROTHERS! says:haha and i cant believe it that i have such a brother! nineh erh! after so long we found alot of places we can go! Esplanade Park (Near the City Hall /Padang) some event. 5 Feb 2008, 7pm - 11pm 6-15 Feb 2008, 11am - 11pm 16 Feb 2008, 1pm - 4am Fireworks from Esplanade Bridge: Schedule: 5 Feb, 6 Feb (midnight), 7 Feb, 16 Feb. chinatown CNY celebration 19 Jan to 24 Feb 2008 singapore river hongbao 5 Feb to 16 Feb 2008 Chingay Parade of Dreams 15 & 16 Feb 2008 _______________________ more photo tml will be updated! in my phone. gotto sent to girl.  girl i will make you see that you're the only one for me. and i will make you know that happiness can be found. i love everyday i spent with you too. and i make sure that everyday is a honeymoon period to you. don't worry about it. and i will make you feel the way of being loved! i love you girl! =))))) __________________________ Sunday, January 20, 2008
something like fun. oh well. went to zoo and did have fun. i guess should not have say that it will rain. erm alot alot of photo taken. let's start with the morning. some idiot say 7am wake up. the alarm rang and i woke up. but some pig didn't. she "errr~" and went back to slp. -____________-''' after that she woke up and i went to slp. 9plus woke up prepare. went to her house wait for her. and the maid abit irritating ar. wearing shoe that time. she told me. "takecare of her and don't anyhow run." what the hell. okay but still i sent her back in one whole pieces. photo taken and zoo was damn fun! went to watch 2 show and all the animals i guess? rain then stop, rain then stop. kinda irritating. but still we finish walking everything. =)))) after that went to chinatown, wanted to see the mickey mouse stuff. and there was pooh and friends too. hmm took photo too. and then got a so call group of "band" singing "what i've done" in CNY? and it was terrible. god! i wanna see fireworks and stuff during CNY, but i doubt that i can even get out of the station. -_____________- and after tat went home. ____________________ PTVB i'm very happy today. we took photos and went to zoo in the end! mext sunday will be sentosa. hope it wont rain. you get me like nobody did. your love for me is kinda endless. and i will never get sick and tired. care and concern is what i needed the most. and you gave it all to me. whatever it is. hugs for you =)))) singapore zoo and i'm coming! yeahness. =) i'm happy that i'm going to zoo tml with her. so damn happy. haha how i hope later will come faster. meet her up, went coffee united to eat. and went up my house. and now she's sleeping like a pig. oh my god. it's the second time she came my house and ton. sorry uncle and aunty, i will bring her back tml. =)))) i'm happy about my parent accepting her. oh hell, tell me i'm not dreaming. my mum accept her! bet soccer and i'm winning. after all i guess the zodiac/horoscope is truth. The Sheep(me) will be there to support the Horse(yuijiamin) when it tumbles. lolz. it's the first bloody time. my parent went oversea, so is her's. maybe............ maybe they went to meet each other up? lolz. rubbish la. haha. i'm going to find her in her dreamland. some idiot pig lying on my bed. i'm sure i will have no space to slp, or maybe she will sqeeze me like hell. =P _________________________ babi babi, i'm so so so in love with you. heading zoo. and i want photos. =)))))) Friday, January 18, 2008
i'm happy that i find you in my life. you really light up my day. you light up my life. i know you wanted to cheer me up each day. and you did. i know you don't want me to bottle up my thing, you want me to say it out. and you did. alot of thing that i never did try, you made it happen. alot of thing i never know how to treasure. you made me know. i'm happy to have you in my life. i know i don't fit to be with you, but you give me the chance. you give me alot of thing which others don't. you give me care and love which i tot i don't need. you make me smile like i never did. i treasure you, and i love you. you really make me do thing that i never did. =))))) i love amytannnnn. Thursday, January 17, 2008
i swear if we don't get married it will be a waste.  i got my girl i'm happy. and guess what, and today was my happiest day in my life. my dad today use the computer, and he saw my wallpaper. and it was amytan photo. lolz. the moment i step home. my dad ask. dad: who is this ar? <> me bravely said: my girlfriend lo. bu ming sian dad: not bad ar. me: ok ok la, let me use the computer le. dad: her parent know anot ar. me: think so ba, so something like that lo. dad: how old? me: 16 la. dad: her parent never scold her for being like that? me: no la. for what siao ar? think every parent like your ar. dad leave to wash the fish tank. after awhile. mum came and take a chair. shit liao la. mum: what her name ar? me: amytan. mum: chinese name? me: ling hui la. mum: what relig ar? me: same as us la. you very irritating le. mum: eh, your gf or whatever it is le. i need to know right. can see my mum is confuse. me: whatever la. mum: she's a model ar? me: your head la. model le. you think i so li hai ar. mum: she not bad looking le. me: of course la. my taste very good. mum: she like you anot ar? me: don ask stupid question le. of course la. if not how we get together. mum: orhhhhh. me: her neh very small right right right? mum: i oso never see her before. me: you did la. that time got come my house then jiu go out liao. mum: i forget liao. but can see abit small la. me: hahaha. yes la. mum: she got handphone anot? me: ermmmmm, think have ba. mum: give me her handphone no?! me: HUH?! why you wan? siao ar. mum: i want la. next time cannot find you i find her. me: lolz. whatever la. next time then give you. mum: you tell her say ask her to ask you don smoke and don go home so late. plus ask her go school! me: ar la ar la. you very irritating here le. amytan: wah, unfillial daughter!!! so fast stand with my mum liao. still wann tag team with my mum. other then that go see amytan de blog. something like my parent know. ok la. they know that me and amy together. so does amy parents. oh my god. i swear today was my happiest day. lolz. and that crazy girl is so happy. cause of the model thing. well, girl ar my mum never wash her eyes ho. ________________________ meet girl and go jp. went to jp library to see alot of oversea stuff. i wish i could go oversea with her too. =) i wish that the thai thing will work out. i really hope so. i oso wish that i can go oeversea with you too. i love you too girl. =)))))))) friendship is something like this song. 你又想起某个夏天 热闹海岸线 记忆中的那个少年 骄傲的宣言 伸出双手就能拥抱全世界 相信所有的梦想一定会实现 一切看起来都不会太遥远 转眼之间过了几年 轻浮的语言都已经慢慢沉淀 即使难免会变得更加洗练 我们不曾妥协 那是我们都回不去的从前 幸好还可以坚持当时的信念 世界尝试改变 当初的那个少年 那是我们都回不去的从前 当你站在那个夏天的海岸线 我们还是心里面 那个偏执的少年 something like those in the blue words la. i guess. don't think we can go back to how happy we're last time. but soemhow..... i guess..... there is something stuck at my heart. something that will never come out. never will. because somehow someone force me to bottle it up. all by myself. something like this.  Wednesday, January 16, 2008
something like i don't need friend. 25days and i'm counting down. i don't know what is wrong with me nowaday, i keep on giving something like ATT to amytan. i think i make her very xinku. i know alot alot of thing i bottle up to myself. i know you don't want me to. i have this wish of senting my gf to school, and you grant this wish of mine. i'm loving you like no other did. you love me like no other did too. i'm very sorry for this few day of my att prom. i'm really sorry. i didnt mean it. i noe what i have done. i really really treasure you alot. when no one is standing by me, you did. =)))) i know breaking up will be the best solution of all. i know i'm stupid. i really know. i still rmb this. nobody wanna see us together, but it don't matter no. cause i got you. i noe you really really stand by me. i noe you don't wanna see me sad. girl i'm very very happy that i got you in my life. i have never felt this way. never did. I TREASURE YOU GIRL! ALOT! Tuesday, January 15, 2008
it's momo story time! =) i should have ask you to go home. i'm sorry i len you to this path. if you haven been with me, this will not happen like this. friends will not avoid you, friends wouldn have not talk to you. if you haven know me, things will not len up to this worst states. yes prove them wrong, you give me the chance to prove. 是你给被宠坏的男人一次机会, yes, i will prove them wrong, but before it could, friendship proven me wrong. all this are what? now what? i don't freaking understand. i don't fucking hell understand. next moment so happy, and then the other moment, who the hell is she man! not trying to say anything but ya. forget it. even the whole world gone, i still have you =) and that's what momo tell me! momo i still love you like no other do. i'm sorry for thing ya momo. i len you to deep shits too. _______________________ i don't know why but i somehow miss alot of thing. i miss BIGHEAD! like months ago i last saw. which is like today i saw him/her i miss my girlfriend too! at jialing house. got no bloody idea if it's still at her room. something like that la. oh god. someone stop me from saying the something like that. all my gay partner's fault. well. he went in yesterday. and my cake is gone like today. everything just goes when you don't know. with one flash. went to sent her off today. somehow ruth and denise yeow was there. xin yi and jane and a don't know what name guy. kinda caring guy, friendly too. mr nice guy =) i was like the very last min person to reach. i reach like at 12? when she need to reach by 12. at the gate, she waved goodbye. but i noe in her heart she doesnt wann go. i can feel that her heart sink somehow. i felt like crying, but hey! you'll be coming back right? =) smile please cake. your owner will be right here waiting for you! ________________________ somehow you place your bet on me. i won't let you down. i won't let go off you. i choose to stay, so i'll prove to everyone that thing will not repeat again. i'm happy about what you said. cause everyone only know about the bad stuff. none will say about the good stuff like DUH~ but you still choose this path, when you know that it's broken. you wanna change and hoping it will. you pursueing your own happiness, and letting friendship off. you choose this path and you don't regret. believe in it and you wanna change it. girl nothing in this world i won't do for you. you give me the chance to prove ppl wrong, thanks mae for warning me so much too, somehow you are standing here too? i guess it's something like that la. but whatever it is. i'm happy that i got you in my life. i seriously do. I hope i wont regret being with you. - no you won't. I hope to last long with you if possible. - yes give it a try. I hope i can stay happy. - i will make you laugh like no others did. I hope you wont let history repeat again. - no it's not going to anymore. I hope i wont get hurt. - cause i don't wanna be the one you cry over. I hope i hope, i hope, i really really hope that everything will turn out okay & smoothly. - yes it will, trust me.\ I WANT PHOTO PLEASE! Monday, January 14, 2008
i guess it's over soon. i will settle every pieces of shit. clear and make sure i can see nothing. i hope thing will be better after tat. and guess what i sent a 10page long messages to her. and i will say it without filtering. after talking, i noe and i understand how you feel now. i seriously do. when're still together and i have fling outside, i didnt tell you is because you're important to me that time. why important. because i love the way you love me and the way you care for me. but seriously i'm not after your money. i don't deny that i thinkof breaking up with amy and accompany you to carry on with your path untill you find others. i noe it's not fair to amy, but i noe she will understand =) and now i noe how you feel now, how much hurt i have give you. and i can feel the hurt somehow. i can seriously tell you without amy, i still wont choose any. because your love and care are making me guitly. guilty as in, i cant give you that much that make you think that way too. after all this i can feel and wat i have done wrong. wat i have lose and gain. i hurt you too much, way too much. but i can tell you that no matter wat i'll still stand by you. cause i have to take respon to wat i have done. i noe me and amy stead very fast. but somehow i need to do that. you can treat it as i'm talking rubbish. but at least now i'm stand at your position and think. i break your heart, but it break my heart at the same time too. cause i can see how upset and break down you're. i noe sorry wont help, but i just hope i can amend you. i really hope. cause after all i'm not playing with your feelings. but i'm real feelings. _____________________________ if still this you oso don't wish to understand then i got nothing much more to say. i guess what i do now oso wrong la. i don noe why. but after talking to momo. i felt so happy. cause she teach me alot of things! momo i love you! haha. talking to aiai now. and she's back! oh my god. she said that it's fucking fun in thai! i wanna go thai but that irritating sh ask me to go some better places. see save money le go there. aiai say that she only spent s$4, and she can eat 3 meals over there. morning dinner and breakfast? i guess. and let's see, singapore cigg's are s$10, but over there it's like s$2!!!! wat the hell. and clothes are this are cheap too. i keep asking about bapok stuff i reliese. haha, kinda interested ya. thai bapok are way much better then singapore. i wanna go there soon! guess i'm going to slp soon le. tml still have to wake up early to sent some princess go school. ya la ya la, YJM is guitly for not senting amyt home that day. ok! i still got friends around you know, tsk. but i know someone will be very understanding de ho! and i didn't get my TANNING! idiot plasma tv! whose fault huh?! i want to tan and swin, amyt! i don't care ar. __________________________ i know i make you emo, i know i make you sad, i'm sorry. if being with me will len all this, i don't mind you leave. cause at least you don't have to go thou all this. i know you already kinda prepare for the worst right. i don't know. but i hope that i can give you happiness. i will settle everything. and i will love and care like how i treat my sister hamster! haha. you are been missed. Sunday, January 13, 2008
what the fuckk. oh great and i hear alot of news today ya. and i hear alot if thing ya. kinda lots. to abc, HELLO! and go and die for what? everyone over here telling you not worth right? for such a bastard oh god. please la. stand still, strong!!! and kill me. what for die for a person who is not nothing better then animals? i agree, if i undo the last step i told you swear you wont like that? you only care for yourself. you don't even care for your family and friends. so many of them standing with you all those. why do you wann die? die and run wont help you much. cause after all you still have to face it. after all you didnt clear thing up. and die like tat. thing are so much could be solve in a better way. but you didnt wanted it too. reason, because hurt too much. i don't know what thing i do will be right. i really don't know. please you come and teach me la. i really very tired already le. i tot thing will end. but yet no, it haven end/ yet more rubbish came. what mroe you want. don't wane reply. ________________________ i know i may do thing to rush. but why every step like i take is just wrong. brother told me this said. one shot and let the person die. why must stab abit by abit? stab one shot with a fucking chopper. and yes la, jiamin did wrongly. wtf! everyone's telling me differently how should i do, how i should do, and i try. but still everything still wrong. now see i took another step. yes la. and what a big thing happen. if i can undone thing, i wish to step back till the day of TP! i want please. it's wrong from that moment onwords. if i never turn up for that day, things will not len to this. friendship will not ruin because of this. rubbish will not have happen. knowing too much truth and stuff is not good. so i'm running away from those stuff. i swear i will. no more choi bu! -> gh and hz. _________________________ i'm sorry i get you scolded. i'm sorry because of me you get into all this. i'm sorry that after so much more, my stuff still could not clear. i hope thing will get better. and i'm really sorry. imu. Saturday, January 12, 2008
i must tell the whole world, and make thing better for me and to you. in this whole world now, i want nobody but only amytan! for all i care, for all i love. nothing but you. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. i love amytan. a dozen of i love amytan, happy? i will try my very best. and i will never stop trying it. cause by this i will prove to you that i only want you. no more things to hide and no more stuff to explain. cause it's all clear and i have my action. please do feel happy about it now okay? pleaseeeeeeeee. read this. 12th january is a great day for a date. 12 means a dozen, and it will mean that your love will be a dozen towars him/her not too many and not too little but just nice for 12. don't lose your chance. (: seach from internet. and what a date ya? i try my very best to ask on the 12.12am but fail. =((((( __________________________  will you? is this the security you are looking for? i hope so. i have the key, but i don't know i should turn left or right. i hope this is the answer you want. cause i;m trying my way to the right, to the right! Friday, January 11, 2008
all down and it sets me free! oh yes. i sudd feel tat i so carefree again. i don't know why i just noe that i'm so happy. cause i got no more trouble. but not no more. only thing was my deardear. i guess. yup =)))) feeling so high High HIGH! cause i'm happy! i need you so bad. but yet you don't need me. i miss you so bad. but you don't. hope everything i have done was right! and now i know what's the best to prove things out. =) woo~ let me scream aloud. i suddenly lost everything, and gain one big thing. i don't know why. but just happy. had never felt this happy before. guess i never know friends was such a nice thing to have in the world. they accept who you are and help you to make the wrong thing to right, they make len you to walk to correct path when you're at the wrong one. they cheer you up and bright up your day. they stand by you when you're down. they listen to you cause then know you best. i tot i know alot about friendship, but i guess i didnt stop learning each day. this is what that make me put friendship on top of others. and i never regret it. =) _______________________________ let talk about today. i meet up with zl, and when to queesway to find deardear. after tat went down to jurong. and talk about alot of thing. like what if you have a girlfriend whose deaf or stuff? and it's always me to ask all those stupid question. i nev fail to when i'm stoning. the topic was started because i was being serve at kfc with a deaf preson. gh cake and gay came and meet us. =) and i'm counting down to the days i see them, i'm feeling rather sad. so we went to tang cheng and not tang chan, went to jurong east cause tat cake wanted to sing. but ended up rech there. the person say there is no more ladies night. cause a new year and a new rule. so play pool, and i swear she damn pretty. the she is the girl who work at kpool. went home. tml and i will be dead. and what i mean by dead. later going ite to do stuff. which is like tat freaking kingkong shimin pushed for 2 day? and after tat i going to meet ruiying i guess? and i'm off to fion chalet and will be toning i guess? 12th, cake and that gayboy farewell party, tanning at east coast park early morning! looking foward =)))) plus swimming maybe, feeling high! =))))) then if can sleep will be sleeping after taning and stuff. at night i got no idea wat are we going to do. what a boring night. but no beer or stuff please! 我在酒吧只点牛奶, 为什么不喝啤酒? 因为啤酒伤身体!!! and there goes my two day one night. going to bed soon. going to wake up soon i guess? thing which you said you must mean it. don't regret. iw ill change for the asake of changing. and i will be a better me. and thing will be better. going insane soon. and i guess you will know why. what a damn till the end of the month. oh god. there is alway a thing call phone. talking is a nice thing to do. thinking whether should i go or not. cause it's like 5.30 soon. maybe not. i'm soso missing some fatass. oh god. cant believe that my mind is playing thing one me. but never mind! be a man. don't always do thing first. i going to sleep now. miss those hug badly. =((((( Thursday, January 10, 2008
two down, one to go. damn it. two have been down and one to go. i guess i have solve it in a better way? thanks to brother and BF. thanks alot. thanks for giving my guts to clear all this. i know it abit ya. and serious i know how it feel like when you ex wanted all the things back. erm i guess i only see this happen. cause it's abit duh la. but serious it is. but never mind. i guess it should. never i can be a friend of hers. and i don know why too. alright i'm going to meet brother and that jailbird. got kinda lots of things to do. if you find it kinda hard to accept who i am. i will understand that why you go. if you find that i don't suit you. i understand too. if you go because you scare of history repeating, i still will understand. cause thing cannot be force. and i agree. made my mistake and let you guys down. i guess all this are meant for bell. Broken this fragile thing now, And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces, And I've thrown my words all around, But I can't, I can't give you a reason. Here I go so dishonestly, Leave a note for you my only one, And I know you can see right through me, So let me go and you will find someone. thing are so much not better? know all this should happen. i know all this will come one day. i know i cant amend things. and i know i will never let things better. started because of me, and end it for themselves. get scolded, and get a slap. cool jiamin. and jiamin is so damn awake now. waited too long and shit's happen. standing at the spot too long, got no idea what to do first, didn't take the first step. and when i took the first step, is the wrong one. and soon shit's happen. wanted to clear in a very stupid way, and yes i did. but hurt too many ppl. that tight slap is just don worth for me. cause it's just dirty your hand. cry because of me, no nobody will. serious i dont' handle relationship well. but i guess those who stand by you are your real friends. and i never fall to see who are those. left my brother out when she wanted to help me. but i told her the reason. and nobody understand me well than her. i really wish to thank her the most. i swear that you are the best one i know. ______________________________ as for this post, know yourself best. scolded for what you wanted long, scream for all you can. cause i got nothing to say. nothing as in, proven guitly for thing i have done. nobody think it's fun. cause it's not fun at all. never know how hard is to say all this. cause whatever i say, it's shit now. about the fucker thing huh, before i could believe. all things i hear was enough. and trust was losing. but after misunderstanding. i know thing better. and at that point of time, fucker was just a word of anger coming out from my mouth. whatever it is. you did what you want to do. you scream all you have. nothing to deni, but rubbish. i cant answer every single thing. cause some thing i choose not to say. i wish to keep it all inside. not to be noble or stuff. but i know myself best. i still think this really suit jurong area ppl well. a broken sentences. ppl just added stuff into the sentences. which i guess nobody will disagree with me when thing happen to them. ____________________________ this post is for my brother, thanks for standing by me all along. i know i give you up before all this happen. and you're disappointed. reason, i explained to you just now. i'm happy that you know how i feel. you know things are hard. and you understand. l know all you ask from me is to be truth to her. be fair to her. but relationship is not just one heart will do. not i agree and it set off. understand? if she cant accept who i am. and there she goes too. so i can't promise that first. but no matter what brother are still brother. i'm sorry to disappoint you much, as you know me well. but all i can do now, is brother will be at your side no matter what thing come. _______________________________ PROVEN GUITLY. SENTENCE TO CLEAR UP ALL THOSE SHIT. Tuesday, January 08, 2008
i guess all this post are some kind of... to brother, we have been brother for like from sec3? the same pokerdot boxer. do thing together. everything was fun. brotherhood which nobody have. saying those deep hearted words to each other. those drinking we use to have in sentosa. those fun we use to have, never be apart. and i hope you know this, me and her was not all along like this. it's the past few day before you know. i guess whatever it is. but saying sorry won't help, i guess what all i can help is to leave you alone. i noe i can do this the best. someone told me this. if friendship is so important, then you won't have fall for someone your bro like. some more you hide thing from her. in front of own bro, lie on her and hug her. why not i put myself in her shoe? and think. there isnt anything you cant solve, only ones you don try to solve. i know it's truth. i was damn stuck tat few day, didnt know how hard was i to tell you this. i have decide to tell you sooner or later. before i could. shit's happen. i know you love her alot. i really know. i can see all those you are doing for her. as a friend i help you all the way. told you which one better. heard you feelings. i'm here to tell you. whatever it is. i know i have done wrong. and i need to explain myself best. thing should be like this. and i solving every little shit.  looking at this photo and it wont help anymore. ___________________________ to mae, i know forgive me is the stupidest thing i will ask. so i should not say too much as it will piss you off. thanks for all those you have give me. but i'm sorry what i have give you. sorry wont help how much i hurt you, but guess avoiding me will be the best out of all? i know you care tat why you quarrel with me. but now i can see how much you had. thing all happen when you started to drink. my words don help much to how much i have hurt you. but the more you will hate me. so i guess thing will be much more better without me. and i guess that you will be much more happier. lastly i apologies for shits i have done. and i'm cleaning it up. but still one baby, one mae. nothing will replace it. ______________________________ to bell, what a silly melon you have, what a stead you have, i guess in the very first place. you know how bad was my name already, you shouldn't have fall into it. i feel hurt too when i hurt you. feeling fating when we don't have time for each other. i didn't cheat your feeling, i can swear. i have never play your feeling, i can swear. your care for me is way too much, that i cant hold with my hands. your love for me is what my heart can never fill full. cause i don't suit your love and your care. but i know we can be a very good friend. sorry wont help. but i noe i will acc you untill the way end. i know i will. this is the best i can do for you. but you can ask for more. ______________________________ to friends. what wrong is already wrong. i cant make it right. what have been done is already done. it cant be undone. what i should not say i have say. i cant take back the words. but the best thing i can do now was to do things well. make thing right from now on! ____________________________ i guess my life is being turn upside down cause of myself. what the hell. i can't stand myself for doing shit's when i don't look like one. okay maybe i do. i have some shit face. oh well, well, whatever it is. there isnt anything you cant solve, only ones you don try to solve. =)))) apologies to every little shit i have done, to hurt my friends, and stuff. cause thing will turn out better soon. i should not hide like some cowards do. wherever i have shit, i should clear up myself. and someone say woman are just like clothers, but brother are hands and feet. dover ite and i'm coming...... abit down la. school sux a million to me. but like WHAT` i still have to go ya? thing will be better. leave with slience, all. damn tired. yesterday meet cake they all. and i know i had fun. meet ruth up too. and thanks for the wallet. 4 more days. 12th? oh god. and what a news i hear. should i go or not? hmm, but never min. reach home was damn tired. ________________________________________ don need to hide cause i know. for wat~ but never mind. nobody knows. Sunday, January 06, 2008
i'm sorry for you. i sudd felt so upset. cause my CAKE is going "aust"! and maybe it's a year and maybe is a FOREVER! what can i do to make them feel happier to leave? and my idiot BROTHER "rochi" i guess you should know tat this day is coming. and i think i should not be sad, cause it will make him more upset. i will alway rmb those day we have together. no worry. =) i will be there on the 12th alright? thanks guys for knowing that i had a friend like your. =) smile please. Thursday, January 03, 2008
Enrique Iglesias- Hero Let me be your hero Would you dance, If I asked you to dance? Would you run, And never look back? Would you cry, If you saw me crying? And would you save my soul, tonight? Would you tremble, If I touched your lips? Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this. Now would you die, For the one you love? Hold me in your arms, tonight. I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away. Would you swear, That youll always be mine? Or would you lie? Would you run and hide? Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind? I dont care... Youre here, tonight. I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away. Oh, I just wanna to hold you. I just wanna to hold you. Oh yeah. Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind? Well I dont care... Youre here, tonight. I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by your forever. You can take my breath away. You can take my breath away. Cause i can be your hero. (it's my answer back to you.) never will get things better. i'm soso bored and tired plus hungry. guess thing will be better sooner or later. cause don't want to be so underground or what so ever? speak out for what you want. let go of what which don't worth. go on for what your heart told you to. but..... why can't i feel how much you want me. i don't know why. but still i will never gonna let thing ruin. i can never get both. friendship and relationship. i'm staying in it for long. and i'm so sure i will. cause you're different from others. and make me feel so much better with you. =) run with me and never turn back, will you. damn boy! didnt know what have i done yesterday. seem so wrong to me now. but never mind. didnt wanted to say anything about yesterday. i need to speak it out asap. please tell me how to start. i guess i feel so much better after yesterday. but i guess i'm abit down duh~ brotherhoods and the same boxer. nobody understand. damn it. i guess i was so damn wrong about it. but whatever. i'm heading to shit~s =) nice having you in my life. |
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