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Saturday, September 27, 2008
and of course blink 182 best hits it's never gonna end. they just rock like nobody else. if you ever had the last album of them, look at them. they are as brave as they can run around their country totally naked! they're are fucking rich that they buy cars just to damage it. the throw money around there area. like fuck la, if i'm their friend i'll as happy as i can! but now, this band have to be disband, because all of them headed to jail. which i think it's a waste. but i'm thinking whether they will be still singing when they're out? i hope so. look at this and you will know what i mean. blink 182. I need to talk with you again Why did you go away? All our time together still feels like yesterday... I never thought I'd see A single day without you The things we take for granted We can sometimes lose... And if I promise not to feel this pain Will I see you again? Will I see you again? CHORUS : Coz time will pass me by Maybe I'll never learn to smile But I know I'll make it through, If you wait for me... And all the tears I cry, No matter how I try, They'll never bring you home to me Won't you wait for me in heaven? Do you remember how it was? When we never seemed to care, The days went by so quickly, Coz I thought you'd always be there... And it's hard to let you go, Though I know that I must try, I feel like I've been cheated, Coz we never said goodbye... And if I promise not to feel this pain, Will I see you again? Will I see you again? Coz time will pass me by Maybe I'll never learn to smile But I know I'll make it through, If you wait for me... And all the tears I cry, No matter how I try, They'll never bring you home to me Won't you wait for me in heaven? Coz I miss you so, and I need to know... Will you wait for me? Coz time will pass me by Maybe I'll never learn to smile But I know I'll make it through, If you wait for me... And all the tears I cry, No matter how I try, They'll never bring you home to me Won't you wait for me in heaven? And time will pass me by, Maybe I'll never learn to smile, But I know I'll make it through if you wait for me... Won't you wait for me in heaven? i'm sorry to know that you're love is just a lie. untill now then i know, you're a liar all along. I fall asleep by the telephone It's 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone Tell me where have you been? You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same Cause I can feel that you're gone You can tell me that there's nobody else (But I feel it) You can tell me that you're home by yourself (But I see it) You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want But I know Your love is just a lie (Lie) It's nothing but a lie (Lie) You look so innocent But the guilt in your voice gives you away Yeah you know what I mean How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you And do you think about me when he fucks you? Could you be more obscene? So dont try to say you're sorry Or try to make it right Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late. I know you're nothing but a lie Your love is just a lie. See, I don't know why I liked you so much I gave you all, of my trust I told you, I loved you, now that's all down the drain Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel Ya questioned, did I care You could ask anyone, I even said Ya were my great one Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad. It hurts real bad, I can't sweat that, 'cause I loved a hoe Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they did me jab Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back. You thought, you could Keep this shit from me, yeah Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story looking at my forever eyecandy makes me happy.    right one please.  all the way to the right. grace chen li qing. oh god and i still remember her name can! hahaha. lucky she don't have my blogspot. if not she will thinks that i'm kinda sick or what ya. hahaha. but it's been realy long i last since her! oh ya, this is to darling. my PB. her name is also grace. but i got no idea her surname.  this is my that grace, not in that bus stop one ho!   the one up there in white shirt!  she's just cute and handsome. that's all. i started to like this name grace. cause they give me a great feeling. i don't know why too. some other photos.   this is like so funny. okay. that's all for today. i'm thinking of stuff to cheer someone up. should i get bubbles for her to play with or stick with my plan? or something that she always wanted from me? what can i do? can someone tell me what to do? which is which? Friday, September 26, 2008
this is the last post before i sleep. last thing i'm asking for. 试着去努力 鼓起勇气 放弃你 总是不争气 没有这么快 学会安静 就连眼泪 时刻在提醒 根本无法放得下你 一定是我不够好 所以你才想要逃 逃到天涯和海角 躲在别人的怀抱 你能不能不管过得好不好 不要故意躲开不让我知道 只要你过得很好 什么都已不重要 我不会故意打扰 更不会让你烦恼 我每一夜不管你知不知道 傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷 希望你过得好. crush. I hung up the phone tonight Something happened for the first time Deep inside It was a rush What a rush Cause the possibility That you would ever feel the same way About me It's just too much Just too much Why do I keep running from the truth All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized So mesmerized And I've just got to know Do you ever think When you're all alone All that we could be Where this thing could go Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush Do you catch a breath When I look at you Are you holding back Like the way I do Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away But i know this crush ain't going Away Going away Has it ever crossed your mind When we're hanging, Spending time, girl, are we just friends Is there more Is there more See it's a chance we've gotta take Cause I believe that we can make this Into something that'll last Last forever Forever Do you ever think When you're all alone All that we could be Where this thing could go Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush Do you catch a breath When I look at you Are you holding back Like the way I do Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away But i know this crush ain't going Away Going away Why do I keep running from the truth (Why do I keep running) All I ever think about is you (All I ever think about) You got me hypnotized (Hypnotized) So mesmerized (mesmerized) And I've just got to know Do you ever think When you're all alone All that we could be Where this thing could go Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush Do you catch a breath When I look at you Are you holding back Like the way I do Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away But i know this crush ain't going Away Going away Going away Going away and i know that for sure. i started to fall in love with this song. =) now i really believe that you and him are really a item. 越爱越难过. what am i to you? what are all this waiting for? CHALET AND I'M BACK! hahahahaha. so fun sia. okay. first day chalet till everyone stay till morning. lixin, huimei, me, guanhong, joan, teehwee, april, jiajia, xuan and meiqing and some other guys. had lots of fun mah. i relise i'm a happy over there. hahaha. bbq for the first night. no photos updated. was lazy to take any, all in joan cam. everyone was high due to drinking la. but i'm a good kid that i never touch drinking but only abit. and last but not least i need to name out the fact. I HATE WHAT GIRLS(PASSIVE) COOKING, AND I CAN NEVER TRUST THEM. that's not link to shuxuan. they really know how to cook but nb303 don't know how to clean after that. second day of chalet, i can't take the dirtyness of it so i decide to clean up the whole chalet. and YES IT'S CLEAN but only for a period of time. sleep in the chalet till night. only me xuan april and guanhong was sleeping in the chalet. and that idiot MEI of mine, damn cute. i asked her not to LOCK the door as later teehwee they all coming and they cannot come in. cause calling us will never work you know as we all are PIG. so sleep till 7plus, huimei and lixin came and guess what. shuxuan did lock the main door. -___- they try calling the four of us but can't hear. so they are stuck outside for don't know how long. till they called me and i wake up and open the door for them before i go KAN mei. they clam that they waited for us to open the door for 1hour. teehwee and joan came and guess what they do again? drink, drunk and high. okay i'm lazy to say out what happen on that day but was damn irritating. alot of things happen. i'm a nice and guai kid of the second time and i didn't touch drinking. to MEI, you haven to made your right choice okay? you choose her then her was right. youn have to know who will treat you better. don't just get cover by the way they treated you okay? like someone else la. and you know that i will support you to be with BLACK one instead of THE GREEN one. so go for it okay? don't be confuse. you know well what she did to you okay! she got no right to ask you to stay, she only got the right to ask you to stay WHEN she got no stead. she got no right to ask you stay WHEN she got her stead. so can the BLACK one do something fast to her since she like you more? jia you i will be happy for the both of your okay? don't forget that kor will be here always for you okay? i never fail to help you right? hahaha. DUMB cum IDIOT. i'm sorry that i was really very busy that i got no time to reply you. sorry okay? hahahah. and i TOTALLY AGREE WITH WHAT YOU SAID! Guys drink to forget about the girl. Girls drink to think back about the guy. Guys can forget, but cannot forgive. Girls can forgive, but cannot forget. Guys wish to be her first love. Girls wish to be his last love i'm a happy kid after i know alot of things. maybe it's really time of me to know what's right and wrong. maybe holding on to something when it's not your is really pointless. and you made me see that you long ago already like him. sigh but what can i do? nothing. 说 说你为什么 为什么要走 说你为何要分手 别拖 求你别软弱 求你说出口 分手的理由 如果说你要走 我不会留 我不去管以后 多么痛 多么的难过 别越爱越难过 然后连话都不说 继续沉默 连朋友都没得作 为了什么 Wednesday, September 24, 2008
what a day. went novena to fetch someone to jurong and meet darling they all. cabb to jurong and traffic slow la. don't know which stupid say won't lo. okay. headed hke then enaq to eat. two girls went off and saying it's weird. so left me katek, fel, eunice, gh and jac jac. headed home after that. had anyone had the feeling being blocked by your loves one in everything? trying to called out her name loud so that she could hear? trying to call out something your use to call again to her but she's not there when you try to call it out? trying to say that name face to face but you got no guts to say out. trying to wear the couple shirt which your had one but there's no the other half? trying to making things right but all you get is avoiding? went to places your went to but the feelings is not the same as it was before? when you are going to sleep all you was waiting was those sweet messages from her again? trying to save money/find money to buy things for her and make things she wanted last time carry the hope when you know there's meaningless? going to places where your promises each other to go together but ended up there's only you left. when lying in your bed and the you're thinking she was once beside your bed giving you cute look but it no longer there anymore? those cute faces she gave you those sweet messages she sent you, you no longer can see those faces and messages anymore? trying to make things right again but there is no way you can make it? holding on to something when there is nothing at all? so close but yet far. how long can this go on? and one last happy thing from ahjie! I'M TALLER THAN ALL OF THEM! I GROW TALLER! YEAH. and photo for today go katek lj see please. =) once lover but now good friends and i like the way now. =) thanks for making me somehow happy today pang. Tuesday, September 23, 2008
oh god tell me what to do god! went jp meet darling and that mad one first. headed town BY LIKE TRAIN FOR SOMEONE! haha. damn i'm like in town for don't know how many days already can. shit one lo. rot and slack at town then headed to east coast to bowl! me and darling win that two idiot can! haha. okay forget to name TEEHUI. i swear they're dumb. bowling is like so easy to me la. lolz. was cheated by them telling us their so call "don't know how to play". in the end me and darling still WIN! lalalala. "yaya liao" slack at east coast till morning and here i am with a cab fare of going 50 bucks can? wa lou. like mad one huh? 试着去努力 鼓起勇气 放弃你 总是不争气 没有这么快 学会安静 就连眼泪 时刻在提醒 根本无法放得下你 一定是我不够好 所以你才想要逃 逃到天涯和海角 躲在别人的怀抱 你能不能不管过得好不好 不要故意躲开不让我知道 只要你过得很好 什么都已不重要 我不会故意打扰 更不会让你烦恼 我每一夜不管你知不知道 傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷 希望你过得好. Monday, September 22, 2008
I LOVE MY BABI DEAREST BII. WHERE ARE YOU? ARE YOU REALLY GONNA LEAVE ME HERE ALONE? listen to this song. it's a nice song. i'm been listening to it. sometimes love is more than is more than a crush. cause after all you know you're felling in love if that crush aint going away. ____________________________________________________ I hung up the phone tonight Something happened for the first time Deep inside It was a rush What a rush 'Cause the possibility That you would ever feel the same way About me It's just too much Just too much Why do I keep running from the truth All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized So mesmerized And I've just got to know [chorus] Do you ever think When you're all alone All that we could be Where this thing could go Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush Do you catch a breath When I look at you Are you holding back Like the way I do 'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away But i know this crush ain't going Away Going away Has it ever crossed your mind When we're hanging, Spending time, girl, are we just friends Is there more Is there more See it's a chance we've gotta take 'Cause I believe that we can make this Into something that'll last Last forever Forever [chorus] Why do I keep running from the truth (Why do I keep running) All I ever think about is you (All I ever think about) You got me hypnotized (Hypnotized) So mesmerized (mesmerized) And I've just got to know [chorus] Going away Going away MAKE LOVE IN THIS CLUB (REMIX) I do it for the ladies I gotta keep it hood Where we at Polo? I wanna make love in this club 'ey (in this club 'ey in this club 'ey) I wanna make love in this club 'ey (in this club 'ey in this club 'ey) I wanna make love in this club 'ey (in this club 'ey in this club 'ey) I wanna make love in this club 'ey (in this club 'ey in this club 'ey) I'm what you want, I'm what you need He got you trapped, I'll set you free Sexually, mentally, physically, emotionally I'll be like your medicine, you'll take every dose of me It's going down on isle 3. I'll bag you like some groceries And every time you think about it you gon' want some more of me Bout to hit the club, make a movie yeah rated R Pulled up like a trap star, that's if you had (in the car) Have you ever made love to a thug in the club with his sights on? 87 Jeans and a fresh pair of Nikes on On the couch, on the table, on the bar, or on the floor You can meet me in the bathroom yeah you know I'm tryna go (usher) Might as well give me a kiss, if we keep touchin like this I know you scared baby, They don't know what we doin Lets both get undressed right here, keep it up girl I swear, imma give it to you non stop And I don't care, who's watchin... watchin... watchin okay, cool huh? making love in the club. cause you're faar faar from average girl. ____________________________________ Oh hot damn , this is my jam Keep me partying till the A.M Yall don’t understand , make me throw my hands In the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer ____________________________________ She li-li-li-li-li-li-li-li lick me like a lollipop Shawty wanna thug Shawty wanna thug [Verse 1: Lil Wayne] C-Call me s-so I can get it juicy for ya C-Call me s-so I can make it juicy for ya C-Call me s-so I can get it juicy for ya C-Call me s-so I can make it juicy for ya C-Call me s-so I can get it juicy for ya C-Call me s-so I can make it juicy for ya C-Call me s-so I can get it juicy for ya ________________________________ i wonder why is there song so A. okay. as you read it is. but i still love this three song. plus "SHE'S LIKE A STAR"! okay, try listening to "A MILLIE" and try to understand what they're saying. haha. cause the background will keep going. . . A MILLIE, A MILLIE, A MILLIE . . . . . . . . . on and on and on and on untill the song finish. but it's cool! cause i wanna be a millionair! just like a Mother Fcuker. i can't stop listening to "i wanted you" stop stop. stop with you remix too. i am sorry, i i'm sorry, i i wanted you so much. I wanted you to be there when I fall i wanted to be the one who catches you when you fall once again. I wanted you to see me through it all i wanted to be the one who see yopu through your studies and your everything, i thought that i could be the one, but i was wrong. I wanted you to be the one I love i was all along loving you and the one who love you so much. I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep i wanted to cuddle you to bed each time when i sleep, but i guess there's no longer any other time, and i thought we will last everything throught it all. I wanted you to show me what I need i wanted to be the one to show you that whatever you need i will give you my best. I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you i wanted you so bad, i wanted you to know there's never another person i love, i wanted you to hold my hands and really never let go, i wanted you to know that love is everything i got for you. i wanted you to know how down deep. So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I it's sad that we're no longer close friend. it's sad that we can't even talk for more than 5 words. it's sad that i can't even have a friend like you anymore. friends? what are they? headed home after lalalalala. _____________________________________ a happy post for you IDIOT cum DUMB cum PIG. okay. where is your link huh? i can't even see them la. and i got link you can! it's on the TOP of the list can! ARE YOU BLIND?! yes yes i owe you choclate! hahahaha. okay, i'm sorry that i always forget whether i got reply you anot. sorry la. don't angry okay? yes be happy please and honour okay? it's okay, i can always go down myself right? don't feel sad about it okay? hahahah. dumb la. and be happy! you're great enough to have wonderful friends, not everyone have true friends understand? treasure them before losing them okay? losing is painful so treasure :]. _____________________________________ to that HIPPO, don't be jealous you big fat hippo. okay i promise to buy you HELLO PANDA le right? cheer up okay? don't know who is more sad over here and i still ask you to cheer up lo. hahaha. what the hell. i know you're jealous, hahahaha. i buy the strawyberry one for you okay? so that you won't eat then i can eat! YEAH. haha, i'm so nice right? ____________________________________ So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I I wanted you to be there when I fall I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I love I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you, yeah I, I I'm so sorry baby but I, I I've got to pack up and leave but I, I'll always remember how we came close to be And what I wanted to be I wanted you baby Oooooh Yeahh I wanted you I wanted, I wanted you Too late, sorry you said that I didn't even Have the chance You said you were happy Baby I don't understand Gave you everything You asked for And was ready To give you a lot more I would've given The world Right in the palm Of your hand Love me forget about the signs. why don't you love me the way i loved you? __________________________________ Baby, tell me how can I tell you That I love you more than life Show me how can I show you That I'm blinded by your light When you touch me I can touch you To find out the dream is true I love to be loved, I need to be loved I love to be loved by you I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever you already proven them that we can't last. And I know they gonna say that we'll give up because of heavy weather we can't even get thought any weather. But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent it's heaven sent but you throw it away. We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong… if above is not true then why are you is everything telling me it's true that we both belong? no one can take away someone who lives in your heart. no one. Sunday, September 21, 2008
say that you love me, say that you care. okay. went to meet them. headed to some bar or whatsoever. played alot of games and the stink like shit. haha. okay, i really hated things that remind me when i was only not thinking about you only for awhile. only awhile. how many times do you want me to listen to "with you"? how many times do you want me to be down for? sigh. bet no one got those feelings of waiting for your love one to reply your messages you sent right? sigh, alot of things there is not under my way. as idiot was saying. why do i hate my father? if he didn't hit me and stuff i won't be hating him so much. i remember i told him when i waas young. i won't be talking to him nor want his money. i don't care whether i'm using his money or not. but i just don't wanna ask him for his money. i want him to know what have he done wrong. using his punch as a pinishment for me is wrong, so wrong. i will never forgive him, i swear. don't tell me his my father after all, i won't give a shit whether his dead or not. he can give his love to my sister and brother cause i don't need his love AT ALL. so sister if you get to see this, TELL HIM THIS TOO. i started hating guys is all started with this. so thanks to him, i know that i don't need fucking guys like him to survie. so fuck off. (so girl, bet you won't understand my heart at all right? but this is the reason why i hated him so much. dont' try to talk for him, cause it won't work. blame all this himself, cause i really won't even wanna bother him) maybe you still won't understand. but i dote you more than i dote myself. you won't understand this kind of feeling, but sooner or later you will. use your heart to feel not using your hands. loves. tell me i have done something wrong. tell me i have did something i should not have did. i got link you la. go see yourself. haha. and where's your link huh? i can't even find it can? lolz. Saturday, September 20, 2008
i got a new TOY CAR by guanhong! hahahaha. force guan hong to buy me a toy car for me to play. yesterday was at town with her at first. was at take walk walk. then sze hui came. haha. i play my toy car all the while and town. nb they two act like don't know me can. but my car is different. got light the door is remote one cool okay! then after slacking awhile at cine, deardear went back. me and darling waited for some slowpoke to come and meet us at timah nearly dead. wth. and how slow can they be? VERY! okay i shall not post about what happen. headed home and yes. i got a pooh bear again. but i guess it's kinda ugly. it's gonna be like endless thing for you. and maybe i will "b" you a spare phone not a good one la. but just a phone. come one girl, you're strong are you? no i'm not strong, i'm telling you. love is like a circle, cause after a round another round is coming again. trust me that i could do better than anything. i know it's not my problem, but at least i have never give up on anything. trust me. start loving and forget about the signs please. and to that someone, how's life it's been one year plus we never contact. anyway your hair right now sux. ______________________________ heading to town like again with that one cute televion and the other drain. cool huh? never really wanted to go out most was with non-living thing. hahaha. bet if tv got to see this, DIE. club or pub? beer or liq? smoke or not? drunk or sober? love me or not. IDIOT + DUMB = YOU! hahaha! you're always the idiot one and too dumb to know that you're one.ya la, owe you chocolate lo. hahaha. no need to write so big right? silly. Friday, September 19, 2008
why don't you love me the way i loved you? nice song from girlfriend. suits me somehow. okay i promise to post a happy post for someone. that idiot fell asleep. haha. okay, be hourned that i post this post for you to see okay! even though my song is emo. but i love this song. a happy start. meet up with darling to pass something to her. then went kfc saw girlfriend and pye they all. it was pye's birthday! happy birthday! okay. headed to town after that cause girlfriend went work ya. my girlfriend is "ahem" bapok. so ya. guess clever people will know what work is she working about right. okay then me ziezie and darling waited for her at fareast. headed to my house there and me and darling waited for them to finish their work. so headed coffee shop to eat. they thought that we have left so they leave to pm. nb me and darling are like idiot we swear. really love you girlfriend to the max ar! paiseh us sia. okay. headed home and here i am. peggy ah lao! where are you? why is everyone going in? why? and i swear i hate friends who betray friends like YOU! bet you won't come and see my blog. fucker sia. you yourself got no money to pay for then forget about it. call police for what? you think by calling police will help? no! rather give that fucking 5k to police then returning it. don't you think it's very dumb? and you think you won't get into jail too? NO you're going in there too with your fucking friends. so get your ass clean up. don't be surprise if you saw me at your house downstair and helping HER as my closest friend to scold you. you know well what you did. get my two friends round and round fool by you. so you think it's fun? come on, you're an adult already. don't think like a child. think of what you should do and should not. look closely and see who is your friend. what kind of friends do you have and mix with right now? they're just asking you to follow them and you will get in too. use your brain can., don't be dumb la. i bet if people know who you're they will be very stunt. i'm kind enough to not write out your name. switching off your phone won't help. running away from problem i shall call them corward. you know why? by solving it will be alot more better. by asking more people in like police you will only get yourself into trouble like seriously. so think about what you should do huh. and look carefully who is your so call "REAL" friends. can't believe what she have done. curse and swear. but of course dear i will be there for you. no matter what happen. don't think about anything right now. if there's anything i can help i will help, of course your money problem i doubt i can help much. cause it's a very very big amount. other then that i will help alot. i will give you my best, but still think about it carefully. don't get yourself into bigger problem. thinking of the cunning way please. okay i shall stop here. hope that people will know who the fuck and what the fuck are you. corward. making your once closest friend getting her ass in will make you happy? no, you will only feel guilty for the rest of your life. and if people know it too, i bet you won't even have the face to face them. what have she done wrong to get all this? had she did anything wrong to you? think. be a man and since you want to be one right? okay, sorry girl i promise to post a happy one yet scolding over here. as you know right? hahaha. bet i'm gonna get it from you. haha. someone's coming back too. damn problem are coming too. sigh tell me what to do? who and who should i? should i be carry on with A, or get going with B? damn or maybe C means POLICE FORCE! ____________________________________ You said it wasn't, Gonna be like it was before. Then it happened again Pushing me back Out the door. Thought it would be For real this time Love me forget About the signs So now what do I do Now, that I know That we're through what should i do? Wish that I Could move on Can't let go i can't. It's too strong Just like that And then you're gone Is this how You wanted it to be Everything you had to say Sent the tears Right down my face Now I'm trying to escape The misery i'm really trying to escape but i can't do it but i keep falling for it. Why don't you love me, The way I loved you? I didn't even Have the chance You said you were happy. i really didn't have the chance, and there you're already happily with your life. I don't understand Gave you everything You asked for And was ready To give you a lot more And then you're gone this was true. so true. My heart was true And that you can't deny Don't be a fool, And walk away from all the lies. It's up to you Cause heaven knows I've tried Tell me You're still in love with me. _______________________________ okay, that's all for my post. it's gonna be another hard day for me. maybe i will get to meet that idiot today. hahahaha. don't be shy and irritating. Thursday, September 18, 2008
why shows and tv show all those relationship can be so easy? but mine went into drain. why? they always said that. when you close your eyes and the one you want to be the most will appear in your mind. i try so many time and yet it's still you. when we will be like some fairy tales? when? why some people can quarrel but after a few days they will be alright. why not mine? why some of them fight can after a few days the ywill be alright too? why? why some of them their hubby can have alot of affair but they and their wifes can get back together? why? sigh. i hate growing up. seem like to me, love is a big big liar. everything seem to be lying to me. the words i heard was all down to the drain. the heart that belongs to me no longer belongs to me. people who don't make mistake? just have to learn from the mistake. i can feel their feeling when losing someone important. maybe people won't understand losing someone is painful. but how can i don't be sad. why? we said that we will get married and stuff. sometimes sitting at canal i really do learn something and i remember alot of things. i got those unsaid heartbroken. where didn't i dote you and pamper you? sigh. thinking alot will only led you to sadness. and call me the mr pretender. i thinking pretending is the best thing. maybe when i see you i meant not be sad but then inside i am. sometimes seeing couples also too. what's all this? i thinking i shall buy food and eat now. if not my mum keep nagging. and pass thing to her. update after i'm back. it have been 1 month since we last broke up. and i'm still counting on the days and step you took leaving me. a long day had just pass. what a tiring day i had today. some photo on the mooncake fest. which i didn't upload and darling complain.   oh ya, this was the fun part of the day. so call cooking the candles and make it melt and there is the colour you want!  got much much more but then don't want to take. oh ya, i have already signed up for police forces! how great can this be?! okay not very. i'm still thinking. argh! should i or not!? that idiot shiling keep telling me to join ar! ahem. . .   okay, look at the numbers and not the card please. i didn't really know that untill i stone at that number cause i was very tired. and i happen to see it. sigh. maybe i shall try joining huh? haha. just like some idiot say "can try try the ma ? haha. as in go join la dont like then quit haha!" haha. she's really funny. headed home that time. i took 32 and i on the way i keep thinking of you.  this was one of them i happen to take. from bugis all the way to queensway. what a trip. sigh. got to be strong, GOT TO BE STRONG GIRL. Tuesday, September 16, 2008
with you remix! of course girl, it's for you. this song really means alot to me. listen untill the end and you will know. god, they kill it. fucking nice, just like umbrella remix. i swear this song gonna be up in awhile. damn fucking nice can. i guess i can only listen to this and not making me cry. cause it's really very sweet! and of course i got the song in my computer and mp3 and everything! of course a much more nicer one better than imeem one. i'm gonna listen till i fell asleep. cause i'm so in love with this song. heading to bed with my computer on and this song repeating. ____________________________________ [Karina Pasian:] I need you boo, (REMIX!) I gotta see you boo And the hearts all over The world tonight, Said the hearts all Over the world Tonight [Chris Brown:] I need you boo(ooh!) I gotta see you boo (yeah) And the hearts all over The world tonight, Said the hearts all Over the world tonight [Verse 1: Chris Brown] Hey! Little mama, Ooh, you a stunna Hot... lil figure, Yes, you a winner And I'm so glad to be yours, You're a class all your own And... Ooh, little cutie When... you talk to me I swear... the whole world stops You're... my sweetheart And I'm so glad that you're mine You are one of a kind and... [ Bridge ] You mean to me What I mean to you and... Together baby, There is nothing we won't do Cause if I gotchu, I don't need money, I don't need cars, Girl, you're my all. And... [ Chorus ] Oh! I'm into you, And girl, No... one else would do, Cause with every kiss And every hug, You make me fall in love, And now I... know I can't Be the only one, I bet there's hearts All over the world Tonight, With the love of their Life who feel... Wat I feel when I'm With you [x5] Girl... With you [x5] [Verse 2:] Oh Girl! [Karina Pasian:] Baby boy you know I feel the same, I'm so caught and I can't explain how You're smile and touch Brightens up ma day, You give me strength to Push my fears away, So You don't gotta worry, You know I care for you, I know you down for me, I trust that you won't lie, Cause ain't no other guy that Can make me feel like you do, You're my everything yeah [Bridge:] Cause I just need you, I don't need money, I don't see cars Boy you're may all And... [Chorus:] Oh! I'm into you, And boy, No... one else would do, Cause with every kiss And every hug, You make me fall in love, And now I... know I can't Be the only one, I bet there's hearts All over the world Tonight, With the love of they Life who feel... Wat I feel when I'm With you [x5] Boy... With you [x5] Yeah y-yeah [Bridge 2:] [Chris Brown:] And I... Will never try to deny, That you are my whole life Cause if you ever let me go, I would die... So I won't front, [Karina Pasian:] I don't need No fancy offers, Just be real with me, That's all am asking, Cause if I ever get lost To find my way home, I need to trust your love To guide my way [Chris Brown:] I need you boo, (hey!) I gotta see you boo And the hearts all over The world tonight, Said the hearts all Over the world Tonight Woo Ooohh... Yeah~ [Karina Pasian:] They need it boo, (they need it) They gotta see their boo, (whoa oohh whoa) Said the hearts All over the world Tonight, Hearts all over the World tonight [Chorus: Chris Brown] Oh! I'm into you, And girl, No... one else would do, Cause with every kiss And every hug, You make me fall in love, And now I... know I can't Be the only one, I bet there's hearts All over the world Tonight, With the love of they Life who feel... Wat I feel when I'm With you [x5] Girl... [Karina Pasian:] With you [x5] Ohh... With you [x5] [Karina Pasian:] With you [x5] Ohh... Only with you Hey y-yeah _____________________________ will you be like that girl again? be that girl of mine again. Cause if you ever get lost To find my way home, you needed my trust of love, to guide your way home. i will tell you that, yes you already have it. follow that light and you will find your way home. found a work for 1500- 2500! a work! A WORK! okay, i'm done with my "a work" i found. a work at eunos. okay like fucking far. but maybe if we still have the next time to get together i have already planned everything. i can still sent you to school, but i head to work! even though it's far. maybe we can even stay at that area too. and i still remember i will get a car and sent you to your school. okay, i know i'm dreaming. even if i really can get all this, you won't be there right? i don't know why am i planning all this already. you know i'm so gonna blacklist VOLCOM and BILLABONG. as i already blacklisted billabong. so cake! you're very very lucky that you bought that wallet before i blacklisted it! i used to love Volcom so much. but for some reason i'm gonna hate it and no longer loving Volcom. so whoever buy me Volcom stuff or billabong, i'm so gonna throw it in your face. quicksliver is much more better, so that's like way better. i use to have volcom wallet, berms, bobshorts and alot more. but now i'm so SO gonna let it rot. nb. i'm heading for more fred perry stuff! and my GUCCI POLO TEE! I'M COMING! SGD$560. for just a fucking polo. and a normal t-shit is 1,659? i guess? okay. i want fred perry polo tee, berms, shoes, jacket, and lots more. i'm heading for fred perry and not anymore gucci too. so i think i don't want that gucci polo tee so much. too many people taking gucci stuff. oh ya, i'm starting to love irritating songs, like "she's a star" as people who knows me well, i have been putting it as my ringtone. hahaha. and "a mille" is my ringtone. and it's as irritating as "she's like a star" and my favo of all is "Lollipop!". i got all the remix! and i'm going crazy for this song. and i got alot of remix song! remix siao like that. so if you want any remix or song tell me, i'm more than willingly to help you. i want to be a DJ! okay, i suddenly remember she use to ask me help her d/l songs too. but of course girl, you're most welcome! :] i have done with my stuff. i'm hoping things will rest well too. stuides and work and changing my life style. so that "you" won't get bored of the life style. i have decided to join AIR FORCE, no more POLICE FORCE! but i'm not joining it for like now? after a time being i guess so, or maybe my birthday? or or maybe i won't join if things get back to normal as in r/s. cause if i join i won't be able to have time. school then headed to work, school and work. nothings new. and i have decided to work and earn lots and lots of money. to clear things and buy a new phone for "you" too. and i'm gonna head for alot of things. i know i haven been doting you for money stuff and i also know i'm good for nothing. but now i'm gonna not be a good for nothing. but of course not forgetting my deardear and darling. they really did alot for me. meet up with deardear after her work. she really understand my heart well. but not today. now adays i don't feel like eating anything. at in the mood or maybe down. but she was damn sweet today. she called me and i was at home all the while. she told me this. sh: ooi, where you? me: at home lo. sh: why at home? me: don't know le, stoning and thinking alot of thing right now. sh: come out la, we go eat? me: huh? where? sh: ermm, your house there? me: okay lo. headed down when she was reaching. i took all the stuff and my book for studying too. and headed down to find her. just settle down and she told me she have order food for me to eat! so touch, but i not in the mood to eat. but she order crab and lots too. i eat some but alot more for that couple. i don't understand peoples heart well. the two couple got no time for each other but they still can last so long. they are heading one year and they are going to celebrate it by going overseas. oh god, tai wan so sweet right. and now i'm so envy by the two of them. they use to have lots and lots of fights and stuff but after those they still get so sweet. well, i asked so many thing about you to fang and she gave me the answer but it's different from yours. okay well. i guess i shall stop here. and who's shiling? holy shit. 25/12/1992. two days before my birthday. first time kanna shit like "please intro". oh well, make more friends then don't have any right? changing my life style! so "you" won't get bored of it! and i hope you will understand why am i doing all this for. i'm heading for better studies, a work, a good pay but lack of a good girlfriend. i'm changing for the better as you said so. a boring life style i use to have. it's all for you girl. :]. <----(oh ya, are you oppih?) Monday, September 15, 2008
alot of things are real. (for you my dearest, lj please.) everything is real. but don't forget to feel with your heart, think with your mind and then cmf whether it's is. i still can't believe yesterday so many people helped me to do the stuff. damn. i really really feel so touch. i can see the my friends are real. they helped me so much with her BOILING hot wax on floor. my hands are all burning. haha. of course MY DEARDEAR was the one to think of the idea. okay i guess i'm heading off. self studying later with darling too. and i got important stuff to do now. :] wish me luck. and loves. what a day. headed town. went gucci and stuff. and bought new love! BLACK AND GOLD FRED PERRY T-SHIRT! damn. headed canal for celecbration and half was because it's teehwee birthday! WEEE~ she must be very happy i guess. haha. talk to ziezie, lynn and alot of them. and i really understand. deardear told me lots of things. maybe after so much i still decided to wait i guess? sigh, but i don't know how to not make things worst. later i will be going over paint it white so that she won't get angry and give her the "salted cheesecake". first time really do all this things to someone. lolz. i don't know why i started crying again. when me and deardear was at cine "with you" suddenly played. and i was damn fucking down. i tryed so hard but i could not so anything. darling came along to meet us up. and then we took bus. i started my mp3 and "with you" suddenly played again. it was a happy song last time. but now no longer. i started crying in bus, i really bear and ren for very long. i really feel so hard and i don't know what i could do more. let's not talk about this first. photo first. photo was taken by fang fang.  this was at town kbox happen to make it.         fang's work. and she said it was nice. and this is all for you.        all for them are so freaking hard to make. but teehwee, deardear, darling, fang helped me. i felt so touched and happy. guess this is really this first time they saw me being like that. crazy in love. i feel so happy after that t-shirt and all this i have done. i bet it will be there for a time being. the last one was really fucking hard to make. 我到了这个时候还是一样, 夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤, 我不敢想的太多, 因为我一个人. 爱我别走, 如果你说你不爱我, 不要听见你真的说出口. 再给我一点温柔 我没有你的消息, 因为我在想你. 從今以後, 你要寂寞多久 誰能給予你, 我這般的溫柔 緊握的手, 不知過了多久 我相信你, 也會有一樣的辛酸難受 在離開你之後, 想快樂也只是一種強求. 懂得擁有, 卻未必能讓你為我停留. 你的永久, 已不属於我 默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙 你的笑你的快乐不是我 爱太多想太多 我能感受 他比我适合 请原谅我, 好想自私将你占有. 爱过恨过哭过也笑过 亲吻过你的脆弱 其实我比谁都要懦弱 原谅我 必须假装爱错 别让时间倒流 我怕说不出口 原谅我 没有解释太多心痛 别无所求彻底忘了我 爱原来要舍得 我 难过 我 才懂 最後请原谅我. i love you, i really do so. last but not least thanks alot deardear. love you to the max still. Sunday, September 14, 2008
i stay in love you with you. i decided to change my life style. school, self studying and home. i decided to change everything but you. i decided to everything from now on. and i will let you see that i have change. 后来 我总算学会了 如何去爱 可惜你 早已远去 消失在人海 后来终于在眼泪中明白 有些人 一旦错过就不再 那时候的爱情 为什么就能那样简单 ? 而又是为什么 人年少时 一定要让深爱的人受伤 在这相似的深夜里 你是否一样 也在静静追悔感伤 如果当时我们能 不那么倔强 现在也 不那么遗憾 你都如何回忆我 带着笑或是很沉默 这些年来 有没有人能让你不寂寞 后来 后来终于在眼泪中明白 有些人 一旦错过就不再 让你走 我的爱失控, 藏在幸福快乐的背后 是我 逃避退. 让你走 我不再是我 感受不到心跳的触碰. We don't even really know why All I know is baby I try and try so hard To keep our love alive If you dont' know me At this point Then I highly Doubt you ever will I really need you It's no mistaking We're just erasing From our hearts And minds And I keep on Telling myself That you'll come Back around See I can't get over you now No matter what I do But baby, baby I stay in love with you It cuts so deep It hurts down to my soul My friends tell me I ain't the same no more We still need each other When we stumble and fall How we gon' act Like what we had Ain't nothin' at all now We both know Our heart is breaking Can we learn From our mistakes I can't last One moment alone Now go I know But I kept on hanging on Inside I know it's over You're really gone It's killing me Cause there ain't nothing That I can do Baby I stay in love with you cause i stay in love with you. and i know this well. i will give you that unconditional love that you used to feel. 有一个男孩 爱着那个女孩 . Friday, September 12, 2008
if you ever saw my girl, tell her you are my friend. please tell her i love her deeply and tell her where am i. always in her heart. 电话亭仍留着你的话 一句话掉一滴泪 今晚的我 会是如何入睡 原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪 原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语 我不懂得如何更爱你 影子讽刺地 跟着我难分难离 原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你 原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己 你 收的干净 原来 说故事也要像是真的 可是别触动那些回忆 今夜你说了最后一句 一句话 掉一滴泪 看来今晚的我 很难入睡 other song make me think of another thing about us. 不要以为我没发现你又偷偷跑去跟她见面 不要问我什么意见你的眼神明明就是有鬼 我的警告可是最后一遍, 如果你还一样不知检点 跟那个狐狸精闪一边离开我的视线 又怎么了我的大小姐 不必谄媚 我不过是去喝杯咖啡 鬼话连篇 电话不接还摆张臭脸 看你表现 你不要又来借题发挥 狐狸精她不要脸阴魂不散真的讨厌 会吗 走在路上不管是谁她都一样乱抛媚眼 怎样 我的警告可是最后一遍 如果你要分手我也随便 你最好快道歉不要再装可怜 不要再拿分手当威胁 谁又怕谁 整天把狐狸精挂嘴边 是她犯贱 反省一下是你小心眼 你不要脸 还是嫉妒她比你更美呵呵 因为你每次都爱大惊小怪 自己乱想乱掰怀疑我的清白 是你不知好歹 切所以我每次跟朋友吃完饭即使是男生 我也懒得说出来你说你应不应该 奇怪改一改 或许我就不再耍赖不耐烦 然后我就学学别人怎么撒娇 一昭嘴巴碎碎念这么快赶着去投胎 她以为她自己很美男人看了都会为她心碎 有吗? 我是越看越不顺眼你到底要站在谁那一边 中间 我的警告可是最后一遍 如果你还一样不知检点 跟那个狐狸精闪一边离开我的视线. i reliese that my font are really small. nb can't stand it myself now. so i'm outting it BIG! oh ya, i got a thing for your to see. always remember this hard in mind, i use to scold JACQ using this. hahaha. it's been so long in my com.  Tuesday, September 09, 2008
looking at my grandma photo. looking at the show. this guy was a very bad and he smoke and took drugs. because of his mother left and make him change alot. even his own girlfriend doubt that he won't change. he said he will but nobody gave him the chance and trust him that he will change. sooner or later he ended up in prison. he was thinking and wondering, when everyone left him, who was the to support him and gave him endless chances to prove himself let him stand up again? it was his mother and girlfriend. i look at me and my grandma photo. we was once that close but now. we can never be that close anymore. never. i wish that we can be that close but she's so far away. i can never see her face again. her real face, i can never feel her touch anymore. i'm so upset right now. who will be here for me? no one. not even you're here. who will really give people chance to change then turn around and walk away. sadly to say that nobody. smoking is bad person? fuck you man, who say so. taking drugs is bad person too? go think about it. drinking is bad too? yes i can say that drinking is bad for health. i don't really care about my health already. fuck that lungs infection. home sux! but if my friends and family member are dead i will be very sad. but my father i won't. i can swear that if his dead i won't be there for him. i've try my best not to text you too much. headed school. went hke to do self studing and here i am. home. was all alone today. was heartbroken all the way. tell me you still love me. tell me you still have the decide on me. tell me. whatever i have said ytd was really true. will you celebrate my birthday with me? will we still be back? i don't know what else to say. loves. lj will have something there for you. 你知道吗? 我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉 发生什么样子 我好希望再来一次 i'm counting down our 8th month alone. are you still celebrating it? happy b******y. i don't know what else to say to you. but only happy birthday. i hope you will stop crying everyday. i know i can't do anything to stop you from crying. but i hope you'll enjoy your special day over there. i'm really sorry, very sorry. Monday, September 08, 2008
我将在等侯你的回来, 无论多长我必须, 因为我爱你。 the game had ended. you put our love to a stop and thought my heart. stop saying about ite. ya so what if ite is useless then useless la. you tink i will be bother by that? no i don't. what have i done? why are you treating me like this? this one last time and chance is totally not gaven, and you put that final shot on me. how long will this last? how long do you want to test my love? how long do you wanna take to come back though my door? how long? tell me how long? TELL ME WHAT TO DO? WHAT? NOBODY IS A SLUT. I'M THE SLUT. NOBODY'S CHEAP. I'M CHEAP. NOBODY'S SLEEPING AROUND. I SLEEP AROUND. NOBODY TREAT ME NOT GOOD. I TREAT MYSELF NOT GOOD. NOBODY IS A BITCH. I'M THAT FUCKING BITCH YOU WANT. NOBODY LOOK DOWN ON ITE. I LOOK DOWN ON MYSELF. GET LOST, PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU GET LOST. I HAVE LOST EVERYTHING. ALMOST EVERYTHING. just leave this blog alone. i'm really tired of all this. for heaven sake plus my sake. get lost. so whatever you want and then get lost. this is the last and final time i'm telling you this. i'm praying to god that for i'm gonna have this one last time. cause i really want it back. i hate pretending myself when i'm not like that. so close yet i can't feel you. i seriously don't feel like going school even thou i have exam. i don't feel like doing nothing right now, since i'm hopeless with everything. i should have know this from the very start. i'm totally break down by what you have said. friends/ i hate being just friends. i don't want to be friend!!!!! i don't want! please be fair to me. i'm really begging you. please for this last time. you use to give endless chance to her. but me? just because i care too much for you and over react you close your heart and your ears just to let me explain myself. what are all this? why do i love you so much? tell me why? why do i miss you so much? why? in the first place why does it happen? 爱是不是不开口才珍贵, i really think that is true. 天空灰的像哭过, 离开你以后, 并没有更自由. 酸酸的空气 嗅出我们的距离 一幕椎心的结局 像呼吸般无法停息 粗心的眼泪是多余 我知道你我都没有错 只是忘了怎么退后 全被时间扑了空 爱是不开口才珍贵. Sunday, September 07, 2008
went jp with lynn(bapok), teehui and darling. saw daddy!!! she told me alot of things too. somehow like breaking news. hahaha. watch 4bia with them. like ~ headed to pm. i was all along quiet. quite emo. tell me what can i do? i'm so lost right now. i'm really sorry i broke your heart. i'm sorry i made you cry everyday. i'm sorry i don't know everything was a screwed up. i didn't know. why must you hide from me? why? why? why? tell me what was it? i don't know what to do nor what to say. i'm really confuse. don't ask me to guess the ending when i don't know the story. what do you want? tell me please. i miss you. so much that you never thought that i would. Friday, September 05, 2008
爱我, 非你莫属. today was a fine day, didn't went for school as i can't wake up. but now i'm so awake can. it's 6.36! i'm going school later. headed to find peggy last night. you know i will miss her so so much. it's gonna be so long. miss you ahlao. i miss you so much now adays. i didn't wanted to meet you up as in i knwo you dont' wanna see me. i hope somedays you will really get to see that someone will really wait for you. not just saying "i'll wait for you."  this is what we got! two psp and two wallet.  so is this.  i miss you.  i really do. how i wish i could go back to the past and i should close my eyes and not yell at you. all i want now was a time machine. i want you back too. i wish that there is something, at least something that i can do, just to hold you back. 爱我, 非你莫属. Thursday, September 04, 2008
i wish that i couldn't shake you off. We were as one, babe for a moment in time. And it seemed everlasting, that you would always be mine. Now you want to be free, so I'll let you fly, 'cause I know in my heart, babe, our love will never die. You'll always be a part of me. I'm part of you indefinitely. Boy, don't you know you can't escape me. Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby. And we'll linger on. Time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're ever gonna shake me. Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby. I ain't gonna cry, no, and I won't beg you to stay. you're determined to leave boy, I will not stand in your way. But inevitably you'll be back again, 'cause you know in your heart, babe, our love will never end. You'll always be a part of me. I'm part of you indefinitely. Boy, don't you know you can't escape me. Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby. And we'll linger on. Time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're ever gonna shake me. Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby. I know that you'll be back, boy, when your days and your nights get a little bit colder. I know that you'll be right back, baby. Baby, believe me, it's only a matter of time, time. You'll always be a part of me. I'm part of you indefinitely. Boy, don't you know you can't escape me. Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby. And we'll linger on. Time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're ever gonna shake me. Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby. You'll always be a part of me. I'm part of you indefinitely. Boy, don't you know you can't escape me. Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby. And we'll linger on. Time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're ever gonna shake me. Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby. I swear you'll always be my babyahgua! I'll stick to you like how superglue sticks strongly to your hands (eh?)! Hehe. You can't shake me away yo! You're dead, man! :D YJM, I want you to be the knight to my rescue. I'm gonna stuck on you for life, you watch out yo! Hehehe. Start afresh.As for my one & only Bii,I'm really really very sorry for what i've done & said. I know thousands & thousands of apologies wont cure the hurt i've inflicted upon you. I still need time, time to change to my old self again. But i've lost the key of security that you've given me. Can you give the key to me again? I need it badly. I've lost the security and i dont wish to lose the main key to your heart. B, i loveeeeee you. Only you, truthfully! i still wish all this are true, truthfully true. (final edition) how i wish i could take one step back at that time. enough of singapore zoo, now came the song "NO AIR", what does all this mean? wherever i go this song came by. was at jp watched wall-e! i swear i gonna keep one! and i can kill teehui's dog her so called "rubbish". felt so romantic watching movie with darling. lolz. but i still wish to watch it with you. cool! and i saw a cute girl name don't know what xiao something de. she's cute, i use to see her at bus stop when i took bus. and friendster too. her friend was irritating keep peeping us when we're heading up. but nb she's damn young. hate 5 to 6 years are way too young already. today was alright. it's been 18days we have broke up. it's going 8months if today was the 12th. it's been 4 days since you last reply me. it's been so long and so hard for days to pass by. who will be there for me? I need you boo, i seriously need you. =( I gotta see you boo i wanna see you everyday. And the hearts all over the world tonight, it's not all over the world every night. Said the hearts all over the world tonight, say that your heart is all over the world everynight not only tonight. Hey! Little mama, Ooh, you a stunna Hot..lil figure, Yes, you a winner this whole part i don't agree with it. And I'm so glad to be yours, i really feel love. =) You're a class all your own yes you're. And.. Ooh, little cutie When..you talk to me I swear..the whole world stops but it don't. =( You're..my sweetheart yes you're my sweetheart, of course! And I'm so glad that you're mine nothing worth much but you. You are one of a kind and.. You mean to me What I mean to you and.. Together baby, There is nothing we won't do we even go to zoo. -___-''' Cuz if I gotchu, I don't need money, I don't need cars, Girl, you're my all. And.. cause we can take bus and train. =) Oh! I'm into you, And girl, No..one else would do, yes this is true. Cuz with every kiss and every hug, You make me fall in love, i can't help but fell. And now I..know I can't be the only one, i know i will never be. I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight, i guess when i'm with you there will be. With the love of their life who feel.. Wat I feel when I'm With you Girl.. Oh Girl! I don't want nobody else, i seriously don't need. as you can see now. Without you, there's no one left then, You're like Jordans on Saturday, from my heart. =) I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,i just cant wait. =( Hey! little shawty, Say..you care for me, say you really do care for me! You know..I care for you, you know it right? You know...that I'll be true, trust me and i will really be true! You know..that I won't lie, believe my words cause i won't lie to you. You know..that I would try, To be your everything cause i really will try everything above just to be your everything. And I.. Will never try to deny, That you were my whole life, i will never deny! i admit here! Cuz if you ever let me go, I would die.. erm that one must think about it ya. don't wanna die young. So I won't front, I don't need another woman, I just need your all and nothing, i don't need another woman i swear. Cos' if I got that, Then I'll be straight yes if i have another woman i will go straight! haha. Baby, you're the best part of my day... yes you're the bestest best part in my life. i promise to be true to you. hope this will cheer you up. =) i still remember this. and suddenly this song came in and i'm stuck with it. maybe last time i will still sing along, but now i'm not. it's no longer a happy song. they got their boo so do i need mine, but where's mine? the hardest thing is watching you walk away. 你的转变像断掉的弦 你的改变我能够分辨 我沉默你的话也不多我们之间笑着什么不说 我笑后表情终于有点难过 问你决定了再走 我突然失败的笑像着泪水般闪耀 睡不着它摇啊摇来到你的面前绕 你泪水无声的掉说会记住我的好 did you? 你的美已经给了谁 追了又追我要不回 我了解离开树的叶属于地上的世界凋谢 我的世界你不在里面 我的指尖已经弹出血 还是无法留你在我身边 断了的弦再怎么连 我的感觉你一定不懂 你的转变像断掉的弦 再怎么接应都不对 你的改变我能够分辨 "Friends come & go, true friends stay. I wont ask why they wanna leave, it's pointless. If they really left for good, they're not my friends anymore. Many are leaving without a reason & i hate it, leave then! As long as i have them, it's okay with me. I know & can feel who are my true friends. I only need them, i only love them. And Yui Jia Min." come on, someone please len my way. someone tell me what to do. i really don't know what i i can do. what to do to go back. Tuesday, September 02, 2008
stop saying singapore zoo in front of me. went school today. headed to find gh and teehui. went ikea and queensway. my mood was all the way down. i haven been reciving your text for 3 days. can't believe that the hurt is haunting me again. waiting for your messages is harder then waiting for you. wherever i go i will think of you. i miss the feeling you're beside me. headed home and here i am. after reading your posts i feel more down. i don't know why. went school, kor told me he went singapore zoo with his girlfriend. from a :] to a :( . they went there and it start to rain. and then i just walk away. i stay in the toilet for awhile and i went out. when she he told me everything, picture of you and me started to flow thou. i still remember we went there and started to rain, but nothing stop us. our sweet first month, going second. i thou you can bring me to a sweet escape, to better days. but i was wrong. you will never know that missing someone is such a painful thing to have. i thou that crying will be okay for me, but how many days have past? why am i crying today again? why is all this things with me? you have your sweet escape and better days, but what about me? school sux! i hate school, but why am i going? why? why do offencer got chances and chances? how i wish they don't have and so i won't keep thinking about it. how i wish i really could end my life up right now, i really wish to. i hate the pain, i hate the days, i hate everything. don't bother asking me to cheer up when it don't work. people will say but they can't do it themselves when things happen? i hate pretenting that i'm okay when i'm not. i hate being at home. if i will to have a car right now, i will drive and speed. it's up to god to let me go and leave this world or not. watching you walk away, now what? what's up next? have you ever know how much i have done? how long i got over yanling and who was the one who make me walk over her? and now who was the one who make me stuck over here? have you feel how i feel right now? do you? do you know those waiting and waiting is harder and harder as you goes? no you don't. why do i have to pretend myself? pretend that i'm not sad. i'm not afraid of losing you. why? never been so heart broken before. why am i so dumb to ask things that i don't wanna know the answer that hurts me? if i know that ending up is so painful, i rather i end my life before this thing happen. i can't run away from the problem, i can't solve it too. so tell me what can i do? never felt so hopeless before. never. . army i'm coming. 想你的擁抱 你的微笑 想到快要瘋掉 愛你到莫名其妙 上了癮無可救藥 沒有你 會死掉 我不再開心的笑 痛苦在胸口燃燒 在你離開以後 寂寞把我 逼進了牆角 現在知道 卻放不掉 世界慢慢的變老＊ 戒不掉 對你的依靠 失去重心 該怎麼好 每個表情 都能治療 相思的煎熬 戒不掉 你對我的好 像被關在 想念的牢 只剩寂寞 纏繞著我 我無路可逃 就是戒不掉對你的依靠 就是戒不掉你對我的好 air force sent me letter now. nb, why no police force? tell me what should i do? why is this all coming? went town with darling, then headed to find deardear. thanks darling for everything. got a new pierre cardin wallet! it's way much more better than darling de UNDERWEAR BRAND wallet. hahaha. oh ya, and she finally got her own PSP! feel happy for her too. you know i don't really cares about what others said right now. cause i know we will change, and i hope we're changing for the better. oh well, my stupid sister watching hot shot now. nb never ask me whether can come in my room jiu suan le, STILL MESS UP MY ROOM! i hate people messing up my room. but i love cleaning, hahaha. i guess i'm one step ahead. deardear is jealous of you, because i keep saying her name and she kaobei me. "walou, keep saying her name only, then now forget me liao lo." okay, seriously i got think of her la, but no point explaining, she didn't listen to what i said just now. well you know i treasure this friendship right? of course i still love you la! don't get jealous, nothing com replaces you in my heart! okay sound so wrong. i hoping to have more! i love the way you are, not the way you change. even you get fatter i still love you. i love the person, your heart and not the way you look and dress-up yourself. it doesn't matter to me what others say. i'm hoping you understand my heart too. ____________________________________ If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call? If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all. I never know what the future brings But I know you are here with me now Well make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head? If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife? I dont know why youre so far away But I know that this much is true Well make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with And I wish that you could be the one I die with And I pray in youre the one I build my home with I hope I love you all my life I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today cause I love you, whether its wrong or right And though I cant be with you tonight And know my heart is by your side I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am you know that you're the one, nothing replaces you too. i love you. loves. |
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